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Just saw a new story about a 76 year old woman shot to death at 3am in the parking lot of "my" casino.
How many times did I stumble out of there at 3am?
There but for the Grace of God………
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Hi Guys,
Had to laugh. I checked my pay today and guess what? I am still short 2 days-the ones my boss was suppost to put in!
I called him and of course he didn’t know how to fix it so he didn’t! I told him to call HR-he insists that he did put in the right dates. We will see.
Off to pt soon.
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Just went outside and a rental truck pulled up. My Neighbors from Hell are moving today! I am so tempted to go talk to one of the couples parents-and ask them if the knew the real reason they had to move! Oh well, I won’t but I sure want to!
Got my stock statement from my old employer. I have a balance of -0-. How sad that is! It used to be over $80k-all lost to gambling and gambling debt.
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Hi Guys,
Boy isn’t that the truth Vera! Larry you are wise to point out the frustration. Frankly I have passed the 6 month mark, plus a few more days, and I do find my mind wandering into "unsafe waters".
I had a very good dr appointment today. My numbers, for the most part, were very good. His biggest concern is my smoking. Of course he wants me to stop and I pointed out that I could not afford to gain weight again and loose control of my blood sugar. His suggestion? Consuelling. I have been on antidepressants for 3 years now and need help to sleep at night. He said I am not addressing the root causes of my compulsive behaviours and you know what? He’s right! I was rereading my thread yesterday and noticed while some things have changed other areas remain unchanged. I was told by a friend yesterday that I am my own worse enemy. Funny while reading my thread just how many time that has pointed out to me. I am mean to myself. Alot more than I own up to. I put up a good front for sure but way deep inside I really really don’t like myself at all, and I haven’t figured out to fix that. I think until I do I am always at risk for a relaspe.
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Hi Guys,
Thanks for the posts.
I am awating my payday Friday-I pray they got it all figured out. I am frustrated by the last letter I got from leave adminstration. They word it to "assume" I will be back at work on the 10th. I have a dr appt the 9th. They didn’t include any forms for the Dr. Even if he did release me there would still be a form involved. I called and left a message asking for one. They didn’t return my call. I think I will call the dr today and see if I can push up my appointment because if the paperwork is not in by the 10th there will be another interuption in my pay. I hate game playing but I guess thats what required these days.
I went to a grief support group with my gf last night. Her niece comitted sucide last November. Most of the people there had children that commited sucide. Talk about sad stories! Anyone thinking about sucide would do well to think about the aftermath. So many broken hearts. So much finger pointing and guilt for the familys.I talked about loosing my brother and cried. 11 years come July. Life goes on but it is never the same.
Off to therapy today. I have a lot of movement in my arm now. Less pain and I am driving now. Of course pt is still painful but no pain no gain.
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Hi Guys,
just home from PT. Checked my bank account and big suprise-no paycheck at all! I called HR and sure enough my boss screwed up the 2 days he was suppost to put in for me and HR didn’t pay me the one day they were suppost to put in.
It is what it is, and should be corrected next week.
I talked to my co banker today. He told me that with my reduced goals due to my leave that I am #1 in the regon-and that I am at 250% of my goal! That being said I unless they find some way to reduce my numbers I will get a major and I mean MAJOR payout for my quarterly goal. He caculated it at $13k-yes you read that right! They have a couple of months to disqualify stuff so I will trust God that I get what I worked for!
Wouldn’t that be wonderful? – I could payoff a loan or maybe even my car! Dream BIG  I say!
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Thanks again everyone.
I have finally got my leave extended to April 9th.Thats my next Dr appt. I expect to be off a bit longer but that depends on the dr’s evaluatation. I hope to get a paycheck next week and if they did what they said they did then I will.
I rechecked with the physical therapist and they are billing me with the in network rate. What a blessing that is! At this point I would owe them over $1000-instead of about $300.
I need to grocery shop and do laundry. Hopefully my gf won’t stand me up. I love how everyone says "just let me know what I can do", then they find excuses why they can’t. Thats ok because my brother will help but I hate to keep asking him.
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Hi Guys,
Well not a real eventful birthday but thats ok. I had pt today and my daughter called and woke me for an early supper. Jen had planned a suprise party for me for the weekend but has decited to put it off until next month. I just get too wiped out after about 2 hours so she will reschedule.
I got many nice wishes and a suprise or two. Someone sent me flowers-you know who you are! Very nice indeed!
I am content on this 50th birthday to just sit back and chill.
Thanks everyone!
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hi guys,
Yes u gals really are right. we never told my brother he was "terimal". he was told his cancer was "treatable". I am sure that helped him face his days. I told my gf any one of us could get hit by a bus tomorrow- only God knows when our time is up.
Still dealing with the insurence. They didn’t extend my leave time even though the Dr filled out the form I gave him. they want more info. I got a 2 day check last week and i will not get paid this week! if they don’t get the form they claim they sent by wednesday i won’t get paid this week either! I called the Dr office today and they said they didn’t even get that form until saturday! so who’s lying? i called my hr and when they get the dates they will back pay me but when does that happen? and what if they don’t approve? I am frustrated to say the least. when i finally get paid the income taxes will be more than usual because they are based on the total paid out. i guess your bills are suppost to stop when you are not working.
hard PT today. I had to tell them to stop more than once. i came home and slept and my arm is still throbbing.
i think i am ready for another nap!
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hi guys,
thanks for the thoughts and prayers. i talked to my gf tonight and she is in suprising good spirits. she has 15 days of radiation then will have a cat scan and see where she stands. she has been told 1 year or less depending on how this treatment works. she is so brave! to talk to her you would not even know she was sick.
i guess i have nothing to vent about  tonight.
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Hi guys,
tx Carole and Kathryn.
my gf’s cancer has spread to her bones and they gave her radiatation treatment to her brain. I am not hopeful for a good outcome but i pray her pain is managed. she is an only child and both parents are long gone. she has a husband and a son. i am sorry for them both.
the insurance is still mucking around-they claim to have faxed the dr another form because the one they sent me to give to him , well, they want more info. dr told them i could return to work with restrictions in 8-12 weeks, unrestricted in 6 months. i guess he knows how to play their games too.
the restruant that my friend took me to had video poker and slot games. they were just across the way from us. my friends sister, who doesn’t know that i am a cg said we should try them out before we left. i changed the subject. just another thing to be aware of. those slots are popping up all over.
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Dearest Lizbeth,
I am so so sorry for your loss. I remember praying day and night for my brothers recovery until the call came that he had taken a turn. I then prayed God take him quickly and in His Infinate Grace he did so.
thinking of you and yours,
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Hi guys,
Was up at 4 am unable to sleep. Looking at facebook i noticed a post from a friend of a friend. I’m not sure if i had posted about this gal before but I went to grade school and was best friends with her through highschool. When we reconnected I found out she had stage 4 breast cancer. Her friend posted that she was in the hospital as her cancer has now spread. It kind of shakes me up. We are 2 days apart in age, and will both turn 50 next week. I tried to call her but juust left a message. Sad
Off to PT and dr today. One of my sutures is infected. These stiches should have come out days ago.
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hi p,
just a quick check up!
thinking about you!
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hi guys,
Thanks Carole and P. I woke with pain today so i am up early. i will be napping soon, lol! overall much better- i can get around without too much trouble. still have trouble dressing but all in all not as bad as i would have thought.
No pt today but i have it tomorrow and dr appointment. i should get stiches out and hope to get info. seems dr office has not responded to my insurance and they only approved my leave-untill the 8th! i got that letter-on the 8th! oh well, paperwork and red tape. it is what it is.
my gf will come and take me to lunch today.
brother stopped by last night and brought me some soft drinks as suprise. i have such a good brother.
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