[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Carole that girl cracks me up! Teacher must let her slide a bit so she wanted to go.lol!
My Ex gambling buddy called me at work and invited me to go out with her for lunch yesterday. We went shopping and I bought 2 pairs of shoes-I know I only have 2 feet but I do love shoes.  I bought 2 lovely summer dresses, one white floral ( yellow and green with swipes of black and grey )and a short jacket. Much different than most dresses I have but I really loved it. $18 where it retailed for $79 . This store sells last years styles and the discounts on new stuff is great. I have a short white knit bolaro jacket to add so I can wear it to work. I spent about $100 for everything and trying not to feel gulty as I have so many bills I could have spent it on. If I had gambled I would have spent 3 times as much and have nothing to show for it.
Had a good meeting on Friday and need to make sure I go more frequently.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Well it’s Friday. Long day but no longer than my off day. I wanted to try to workout this morning but didn’t sleep well. Big storms rolling through kept me awake.
Nice chatting with you RG.
Autumn if you are around start a thread. Sad to say we need some "new blood" to energize this site. At one time tons of people posted and now-well since the issue that happened here last year it’s just not the same.
Vera I didn’t mean to chase you off your thread. I was just struck with you words about feeling like doing certain things might make you "hit" a jackpot. See thats the surrender thing. Accepting the fact that CG’s can NEVER win because we can not physicaly walk away. We get that "mental freeze" that make us unrational and incapable of leaving with a "win" or keeping one. It that notion that "HAS TO BE SMASHED"!
There is no "win" that would ever be bigger than my Addiction. I know that.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Thought I would post after a long day. Work then Pt. Icing my arm as I type. I feel a bit set back in my therapy but it is what it is. I only have so many sessions then insurance cuts off and I am on my own. I have to take full advantage and work as hard as I can and just deal with the pain. Much like life I guess.
I has awful urges-pitty partys-all weekend. I made myself get up and do things. I posted to desdemona then deleated it. I really wish I had more friends and I don’t know how to make them, Silly really, such a simple skill, but one I missed by being codependent and scaring people off.
I’m going to give myself a manicure and pedicure-if I stop being lazy. I bought hair dye-thought maybe it’s time. Glad I have hair to dye-yesterday I had a moment with the gas grill when I was lighting it. I turned on the gas, lit the match, bent over to light the grill and it jusf went POOF! I singed my hair, eyebrow-just the left one-so fortunate it wasn’t a work day because I use a ton of hair spray and would be bald with 3rd degree burns! God is Good!
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Thanks Lizbeth. I came home from work and didn’t make my meeting. I am just too tired.
I have had my gf on my mind all night. Her friend posted a pitcure of the urn that is on the mantel that her ashes are now in. No funeral, no service that I am aware of, and a tiny obit in their hometown paper. Thats it. Game over. Life is passing like the blink of the eye. I can’t believe her life is over. So many of the people I grew up with lived such short lives. I lost my first friend when I was 11. She had a brain tumor. My mom took me to the funeral home. I didn’t know her body would be there and I was terrified. They had a Raggidy Ann doll in the coffen with her. 39 years later and I can’t get that image out of my head.
I think I need some sleep.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Glad to be off today, Therapy is in an hour or so. Not sleeping well. Arm pain is waking me and I am back to sleeping in the recliner.
Seems I am not  the only person goofed up about the bonus payout. Anyone who gave me a referal had their credit taken away because I was removed from the roster. That has affected almost all of the tellers and their manager. Everyone is in an uproar as they were counting on what they were told that they would be paid out tomorrow. I can’t believe that this system is so messed up. I am not the first person who took a leave of absence. How could this have happened? My guess it my boss didn’t do his job-big suprise.
The teller manager told me that her and the manager discussed me having the assistant position. I told he he has not said word one to me. Heck, there is do much drama going on there right now I don’t want to be sucked into the middle.
They mentioned the expressway that leads to the casino having a wreck this morning and being shut down for a while.That gave me a gambling urge-does that make sense to anyone? I think that physical and mental stress is getting to me. I should be able to get to my meeting tomorrow. i hope so because I really need it.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Larry,
I can feel your pain about the sinus stuff! I had an infection that resisted antibiotic shots, pills then steroids. Dr threatened to send me to an ear, nose and throut guy.
Stay safe in these nasty storms-and feel better!
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
I did have the talk with my boss and have my off day on Thursday. I threatened to get the Dr note-he changed the schedule. That didn’t stop him from leaving me all by myself to work today-his friend was off too. Hmmm…..
On a sad note my other best gf from childhood died today from Breast Cancer. Mary was loud and proud-and she let you know it. She was the other "fat girl" in grade school and was the one with me when the Nun would pull off the playground, take us in a closet, and make us weigh ourselves.
My shoulder has been awful this weekend. Yesterday felt like it did 4 weeks after surgery. I couldn’t raise it over my head today and hurt all day at work. It did get a bit better by the time I left and the PT tonight helped. The therapist said it may have been from the weight training we did Friday. I should have stayed home today but knew I was going to be the only one there.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Just got a message from my friends friend. She said Mary will go home with Hospice care. I am glad she will go home as she has pets and I know she would like to have them around. Her GF told me not to worry as she will stay with her until the end. Mary only has her husband and son. Her parents have both passed away and her only family , aunt uncle and 2 cousins, live in the Chicago area.
Just home from work-I had to close again. My boss is being a total *ss! I told him when I had pt scheduled and yet again he scheduled me to work on my off day-Thursday. He also had me scheduled to close next Friday-after I told him I go to consuelling on Fridays ( MY ga meeting night!) He posted the schedule then scooted out of work as fast as he could! I called him on the phone to confront him because I am SO UPSET with him. He’s crying because he has had a couple 6 day weeks. BOO HOO! That’s what they pay him for. Also found out today that I will NOT get my bonus next Friday. Since I was off work when they caculated the payout they will pay me sometime next month-and I still don’t know how they are caculating the pay. I sent an email to my boss before I left work detailing my PT schedule and explaining that I could have taken MORE time but knew the branch was in a pinch and needed me. I guess it’s true "No good deed ever goes unpunshed." I am going to try to stay calm and talk to him tomorrow. I am going to tell him that I am unable to continue to be a key holder for the next few months until I am fully recovered. I am also going to contact my DR to have him be more specific about the need that my schedule accomodate my PT schedule.
I am tired tired tired!
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Busy off day-still more I could do but I am wiped out.
I have a friend from grade school who has Breast Cancer. We have talked on the phone as she lives in another state. I had sent her a message on FB, kind of a goodby as I know she was being treated for brain cancer. Her friend messaged me back, saying thanks and she would relay the message. She also said my friend talks about me all the time-and oh the stories she could tell! I just got another message today-they are just keeping her comfortable. I am suprised to find that she is thinking about me after all this time and I am sad that I can’t see her one more time. ( She was supost to come visit me in March but got too ill.) It’s hard to go from praying for someone to recover to praying for a pain free transistion to the next life.
I’m sure she will give my brother a big hug for me. They were friends too. 50 is too young to die. I am two days older than she is.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Thanks for the encourging words! My knee is still a little swolen but not hurting so thats good. My neck on the other hand is very sore, my arm is not happy either. 
I am off tomorrow and I am glad! Seems while I was off one of the tellers was let go-and the boss rehired his "friend". She had gone to another locatation and she quit. Seems they expected her to work. Long story short the "stuff" is about to hit the fan, as the tellers are fed up. One has an appointment with the regional manager and has PHOTO EVIDENCE of the inapproate relationship between the boss and his "friend"! ( Walking hand in hand at Walmart is NOT COOL!) There is also info text messages about the same "Friend" – from his Wife! Yikes! There may be no staff when I get back on Thursday!
My selling is on and off Carole. Just found that a have a few pieces of rare dishware from the 1940’s-and mine is even more rare as it has a red stripe. I just sold a spoon holder that I paid .99 for-$24.99. Not a bad return I must say. Still not sure about my payout but looks like about 3 grand-not $13 but hey-Thats great!! Even short handed I have not opened 1 account since got back.
bettie
ps my second pair of new shoes hurt my toes! Gonna go to the shoe store tomorrow!
 

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Well what can I say.
Payback big time! Boss gave the teller manager the week off, my partner is off thursday-till the next thursday. I am the 3rd key holder so he has me closing every night and working open to close-by myself-on Thursday- my usual off day.
He said everyone is burnt out and needed the time off.
I asked him not to kill me my first week back. Guess that fell on deaf ears.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Didn’t sleep well-no big suprise there.
Off to work in 45 minutes.
New  dress, new shoes. Glad to have a job to go to.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Yes allergy season is bad. Went out to the car and it was covered in pollen.
Went to my meeting and the guy I mentioned was there! Guess I congered him up! When he had his "sharing" with the group he talked alot of bible stuff and lost me. Hey what ever it takes you know?
Did some thrifting and got some goodies to sell and 3 dresses for myself. It is unusual to find nice dresses in plus sizes so it was a good find. Guess I am set for back to work. Hope the knee is better tomorrow.
All good advice Carole. I would only consider the position if I could have a trial period. I don’t want to loose my job if it doesn’t work out. My boss is really irritating. He just leaves the branch with no word then doesn’t come back! Also I would be on salary, I would not work 45-50 hours while he skates out with about 30-35 each week.
bettie

[bettie]

Hi Guys,
Well back to work Monday for me. I went to a REAL shoe store-not manny left for sure-and got fitted for 2 pair of comfortable dress shoes for work. Nothing fashionable but I shouldn’t have sore feet for the money I spent ($200!). I rarely buy expensive shoes and wind up buying 5-6 pairs that hurt and i wind up giving them away. I should come out better this way.
My co banker called to make sure I was coming back to work next week as he is taking vacation time. I hate that I am going back into a train wreck. The assistant has been terminated so that leaves me and the boss. Payback for being off I guess.
The cat tried to escape yesterday and I ran after him-hurting my knee. It’s swolen and achey but thats life. Don’t think I will be able to workout today.
I also had to buy a new air conditioner. Mine was old and past the point of repair. You know when it rains it pours. It will take a very long time to pay off my credit card but I guess thats what it’s for.
Well need to get stuff done-last Friday off for a long time.
bettie

[bettie]

Hey Carole,
Glad you had such a good time.
Being at a well know trial is not something I could ever imagine doing. You are so brave just to go do things. I still find myself paralized with fear when it comes to "unknown" things! I am sure I mentioned I am a tourest in my own town.
Off to am early Dr appt in about 45 minutes-he will decide if I go back to work tomorrow or in another week.
Hope to talk soon!
bettie

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