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Thanks for your posts Cat and Carole!
I am feeling overwhelmed with so much change going on at one time. I have yet to start logging my meals for my appointment next week. The condo is still a wreck-hasn’t been really clean in over a month. The managers at work have shifted into high micro management mode and are pushing us to find places to go open accounts. They need to make a good showing for the new company to keep their jobs. I have no reason to doubt anything my gf had to say about the new company. We worked together as hairdressers over 25 years ago and I got her the first job she had as a teller so I know her work ethic and intellegence. She was let go for a very minor error that she brought to her managers attention as soon as it happened. The company took 21 days to decide to terminate her and tried to block her from getting unemployment benifits. The kid they replaced her with cost the company a $20 thousand loss the first year he was there. She collected unemployment for 2 years. I do believe they made a big mistake -she is an excelent worker-and they got paid back big time.
Well I need to make a plan for today and stick to it. Meds to pick up, clothes to wash, paperwork to get to.
I am tired just thinking about it.
bettie

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Hi Guys,
I guess its be careful what you wish for, lol. I have not started using the pump yet. I meet with the educator next Thursday. In the mean time I have a 75 page workbook and a dvd to study up on. I am tracking blood sugar and suposted to be logging meals and snacks-which I haven’t yet-because the pump has to be programed to give me the correct insulin around the clock. My GF was giving me the 3rd degree-why not just get a gastric bypass as that seems to “cure” diabeties. I did that research about 10 years ago and since I have scar tissue from gallbladder surgery they would have to cut me open. No thanks-6 months to recover and no one to care for me just won’t work.
For those of you that know our old friend Ken L from Canada he has been in the hospital for a heart condition. His daughter has been posting updates on FB and after a few issues he is coming along and should be home soon.
My GF that worked for and was termanated from the bank that bought our bank had nothing good to say about them. I had avoided calling her as I knew I would not hear anything good but she has me rattled as she said I should expect a pay cut and new health insurance that is very expensive and that has a high co payment. Nice. Just what I wanted to hear-NOT!
Guess I will cross that bridge when I get there.
bettie

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If you make it to the states let me know! I would love a meet up!!
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Well I got an unexpected suprise at work today. It’s a 3 month supply of pump supplies! There is no $$ due so I am guessing they would not have sent it had they not gotten paid. I do have 1 more issue-test strips. The pump had a different meter for checking blood so I have to see what that will cost. I will call the educater tomorrow and make arrangements for instruction.
Things are moving in the new year for sure. Our bank has been sold so lots of things will be up in the air for a while.
ODAAT!
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Hi Miss P and thanks for your post to me.
Those damn urges! They are awful but in time they will lessen. The further away from the last bet the smaller they get. I still get them and I try to remember to surrender. I tell myself yes at this very moment I would like to gamble but I surrender to the fact that I am helpless once I start, I can’t stop. One bet is not enough to rid me of that urge, 1000 wouldn’t be enough. Gambling crushes my spirit, makes nervous, sick to my stomach, discusted with my self and stopped being fun a long time ago. Funny how the addiction makes it seem fun and harmless when in fact it would just add to the destruction. Try to remember if you fall for the “urge” the regret is just not worth it!
peace
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If not for email I would not know someone replyed tp a post. I really dislike that if you reply to an earlier post instead of posting after your last post it follows the origional post. It would be helpful if that feature were disabled as I now see where I have missed some replys so to anyone feeling slighted I am sorry I may not have responded because I missed your post.
Snowing like crazy with sub zero temps to follow. Welcome winter! Haven’t had one like this in a while.
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I have already seen Dowton Abbey 4th season. Deb turned me on to a site that has them posted. I’ll email it to you.
So cold and snowy here-seems we have some Canadian air moving in. Our high is supost to be -5f Monday.
We may set some records.
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New years new goals at work! Seems like Christmas was months ago!
The manager is on my co partner about shoveling snow. We have a matience company but with the ton of snow we had yesterday they didn’t both doing the walk way. Long story short I made it clear that in years past I was ALWAYS the one who shoveled-and my turn is DONE! He really shouldn’t expect my co banker to shovel either-but thats his issue and I need to keep my nose OUT.
I had a woman come in to tell me her sister, one of my customers, was murdered by her husband. So So sad! She said she was trying to locate and insurance premium for life insurance so they could bury her. I searched and search and all I found were ATM transactions from all the casinos around here. I didn’t give that info out or ask but she mentioned the sister had taken the husbands card from him. I wonder if this is a result because one of them was a cg and it caused martial issues. Prison, insanity or death-or maybe all three?
Sad sad sad!
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Thanks everyone for your care concern and prayers!
After 6 phone calls today I did get approved for the pump! However they DIDN”T get the approval for the supplies! That will cost me about $500 the first time around, then about $120 every 3 months. How will I pay for that? Well, God is Good as I just got a notice about a class action suite that I am a member of. They have setteled and I have a nice chunk of change coming my way sometime in the spring.
God bless us everyone!
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Well seems another year is past. Thank God as I would not like to repeat this one!
After weeks of bagering I called the insurance myself and was told my appeal was declined. The pump provider called me and I canceled my order. At 3:30pm my Dr office called me to say the apeal worked and I was approved! How can that be? I am po’d at the Dr office as I had called them first and the gal who was working my case said she would call in the afternoon. I expressed that we were at the 11th hour and they still waited until the later afternoon to call!
I called the supplier back-and caught the snotty girl I am working with and she was leaving for the day. She has to contact my insurance today and get the approval. I told her-again-this is it. Get the order in or forget it as I can’t afford the co-pay.
It’s in God’s hand. I have learned I can’t control people places or things.
Wishing everyone the Happest of New Years!
bettie

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Bad things do happen to good people.
None of us asked to be an addict.
The old tools we used to cope-gambling, drinking drugging etc. helped to get us where we are today.
Hold close to your new support – positive and healthy.
The crisis you find yourself in is NOT because of your past-it’s life happening on lifes terms. Sometimes that really stinks but it is what it is. Hold tight-this too shall pass.
Wishing you love and light in the new year!
bettie

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I was thinking about giving you a call but I see you have company.
Glad you have food in the house-lol! My GF looked in my pantry and said I would never starve for sure.
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Hope you are feeling much better very soon!
How about ordering in some food? In the states we have “peapod” You order grocerys online and they deliver them. First order gets free delivery. Just a thought.
I am back to work after a very busy 2 1/2 days. I have a small family get together tonight but am looking foward to a couple days off to recoop. Merry Christmas-as it is a season not just a day-and wishing you the Happeist New Year!
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than never! Merry Christmas my sweet P!
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I feel like this month has passed in a hurry! Work has been super busy the last couple days-which is unusual on the new account side. God is good as I have opened some major accounts that were totally unexpected. I will end the year in great shape work wise. We have been told unofficialy that we have been bought by another bank. Time will tell how that will work out so odaat on that score.
I did just catch up on your thread and frankly Carole all the “death” thoughts may just be your addiction talking. It is funny how it finds the most usual ways to strike out at us. Baffling and isidious is so true! I wish I had spell check here-lol!
Take care Carole-and thanks for all your support to me!
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