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Thanks for the post and invite Carole. I just got approved to have the first week off in July-no chance of getting any more time.
New Orleans will be hot and humid come July-you may want to consult Larry as I would think the fall would make a better vacation unless of course you like hot weather.
Deb has invited me for Canada Day but more likely I will be helping Jen move to southern Illinois. My sister in law’s boyfriend has a converted garage on his property that he said she could use until she has arranged for a place in Georgia. It’s not much but with 2 dogs and 2 cats beggars can’t be choosers. I am very greatful that this offer has been made to help Jen out. I felt like my deceased brother had a hand in helping out. We were desperate to think of some place she could go and it just popped in my head-call Aunt Jackie-and the response was come on down. A very long time ago my brother was evicted from his home and he stayed here with me with his wife and 2 girls-imagine 6 of us here in my tiny condo-but we made the best of it. I remember when my brother was sick they had no phone. I bought him a cell phone and he was so excited. ( little did he know that I was afraid he would take a turn for the worse and his wife would have to run to a neighbor for help in the middle of the night) He told me how sorry he was that I was spending money I didn’t really have on him and I asked him if I was in need and he could help me would he? He responded of course so I told him that was thanks enough. In this situtation I really feel his presents reaching out to help us. He’ll be gone 12 years come July 11th. Where did the time go?
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Had another call from the “landlord” today-trying to ease his concence-which I believe he doesn’t have. He told me he didn’t want bad feelings between us. OMG-and he wants June rent.
Guess its time he learned he can’t have it his way for a change. He has already threatened court action and I told him to remember that I wasn’t some unfortunate illegal he was renting to and I know Jen’s rights. I also told him I documented the condition of the house when she moved in. ( I took almost 50 photos )
I have never felt more like gambling than I do right now. I won’t add insult to injury – I hate being so angry.
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Just a little catch up.
Saw my Dr today. My numbers are good from my bloodwork but will need to repeat the colon test in 5 years as what they removed have a small chance of becoming a cancer later in life. I wish the lung Dr had the same news. I have a new nodule in my lung. It s larger than he would like and he wants another CT in months. The ones I have had in the past are smaller than this one and have now healed over so with Gods help this one will do the same. If it was larger he would biospy it but it’s kind of in between so its a watch and see kind of thing.
I had it out with the “landlord” today. He is mad because Jens boyfriend dare ask him to repair the air conditioner. Long story short he wants her out of the house. She doesn’t have a lease and he can start evection and I told him to do what he feels he has to do. He didn’t want it to ruin our friendship. Really? I told him in no uncertain terms that ours is a strictly business relationship-and if he had any other thoughts be sure to loose my number. He has only been in the bank a very few times in the last year or so to collect rent. I hate to break it to him but if he thinks he’s getting rent June 1st he has another thing coming. He has $1000 security deposit on that dump which he would never give her back anyway so that it for him. Jen is in Georgia for a friends wedding and she could care less. Her plan is to move there in the fall and will call her last landlord and see about a place until then. I am weeping just thinking about her moving away-again. While not a suprise I don’t want her so far away.
I am dog sitting so I will be at Jen’s all weekend with no internet. I am starting to feel abandoned all over again. Not a good feeling for a CG for sure.

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Surrender ! I hear it in your “voice” and we can do it every day if we need to!
I love that gift of spring from my customer today. Very lovely-the mom sent the son in with it and I hugged him-twice! lol!
Keep venting and sharing and don’t forget to pat yourself on the back. You’re doing a great job Cat!
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It is said in meetings that we don’t need to know why we gambled in order to recover from it. Personaly, for me, knowing why I gambled has turned out to be the key in my sobriety from it.
I “weed” my garden ( my head ) almost daily. I still think about gambling but I choose not to do it.
I know if I want my sanity I can not gamble-not even a little.
A work in progress-some days the work is easy and some-well-they just stink.
I know you mentioned in patient treatment was a possible option. Think about it.
Why not restart the GA group?
Most times when we help others we help ourselves.
Love you ((Carole))!!
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Funny how we think of gambling as a “reward” for our hard work! If anything it is a punishment. We work physical work just to give it to someone who owns a machine that takes so much more than our money! Our self esteem, our time, our mental health and peace of mind are a very high price to pay for an escape that frankly gives me chest pain.
Cutting up the card is a good start however nothing will stop us from gambling until we pull this weed out by the roots.
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well I survived my test friday. They did find some polyps and they were removed. I have mild diverticulitus-that was a suprise too. I get my biospy report later this week. I also had my follow up cat scan Thursday-the one I was suppost to have 2 years ago. My family doctor called Thursday afternoon to say they have the results already-and I needed to be sure to follow up with the specalist. I have 3 dr appts This Thursday.
I am coughing like crazy.
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I saw that name and thought hey I know that lady!
I did a quick scan of your posts and it sounds like you are going through hell.
With legal stuff you would do well to go to meetings. To heck with those who doubt your ability to succeed! I know members who are like that-smug oldtimers who think they know everything. Screw them! Less than 1% make it 5 years so in a way arn’t they gambling by betting in their head that you won’t make it?
No one’s perfect for sure!
I would love to post more but I have to get ready for work.
No matter what you feel post like crazy Lorraine!
We’re here!
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I saw this on FB and had to laugh.
“I wish I was a fat as I was the first time I thought I was fat!”
Off to work soon. I am having a colon test Friday-yuk-so tomorow is my last work day. Nice to be off but would rather be at the beach!
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I can just see your kitchen V, lol!
Cat do you really stay full with a “shake”? I am such a piggy!
Well here’s a new one (not!). I had a customer in today who won money on the lottery. Not millions but an impressive amount for sure. He was asking financial advice and we made an appointment with the investment person. In my CG head I’m thinking I should buy a lottery ticket! Well the reality is I wouldn’t be thinking like this man, ( he plans to buy a “new” used car, put some away for retirement and start college accounts for his 3 grand kids.) As a Cg I might buy a house, new car and blow the rest, putting the items in danger of being lost to the new debt I would create trying to “win” that money yet again!
This is some sick thinking!
I don’t think this guy is a cg. I pray it doesn’t make him one!
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Seems to be the only time I post is when I am feeling a bit guilty about reading and not posting!
Hope everyone had a lovely Mothers Day. My brother cooked for all the Moms and my daughter bought me a blender for smoothies. Ok, not my cup of tea, but her hearts in the right place. I really prefer to eat my food and don’t think drinking blended fruit drinks are all they are touted to be. She insists that she has some concoctions that are low carb and filling so I need to be more open minded.
Very stormy here today. Spring has sprung.
Every day gamble free is a wonderful day.
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Thinking of you Reds.
Loosing your Dad is never easy. I miss mine very much, even after 14 years.
Have a safe summer.
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Those beautiful tulips are in bloom here now. I think of you and Reds when they come up now. They were so beautiful when you two were here, Hardly seems like 2 years have past. Wonder what Larry is up to?
The Canandian Geese are hatching eggs in the oddest places-one right in front of a store on a busy street. Sweet to see the couples guarding the nest.
Take care !
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Just a quick update. I have good news to share. My brother in law has finally been approved for disability. I am so happy for my sister as that will take a bit of the burdon off of her. Her teen daughter also found a pt job. It has been over 2 years that he has been trying to get this disability payment and had to get a lawyer to do so. It is a shame as the lawyer gets 1/3 of the “past due” payment-thats why they drag it out as long as they can. The system is so broken but it is what it is.
My CG friend was at the bank yesterday trying to get some checks so he can get a payday loan 2 days after payday. Why? Because the horse race is this weekend. I don’t miss gambling at all!
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I was doing a bit of bed time reading and thought I would say hello before I jump in the sack.
You know procrastnation is just a waste of time. I know thats true as I am the queen of procrastination!
I really need to quit smoking and tried Chantax for a week-until I realized it was making my blood sugar crazy! I am a bit dissapointed and went and spent money on a carton of cigs! At $100 for 10 packs ( About 1/2 that in Indiana where my meeting is) that $300 a month that I spend on yet another addiction~how stupid am I?
Oh well before I continue to hijack your thread I am off to bed and wishing you a wonderful weekend.
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