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Wow hard to believe that vacation is coming gone already. found out today that my boss will be taking a promotion and leaving my branch. say that I’m disappointed would be an understatement for sure. assistant manager she’s been acting like a total ass. she talks about each and every one of the employees there behind their backs. the worst part is that she’s so rude and demeaning to all of us. I just hate the thought of having to break in a new boss. I am kind of at my wits end as I really despise going to work everyday. I have to remind myself that the only person I can change is me. I am NOT able to do anything about her snotty rotten attitude towards all of us. I do know that the new boss coming in front of your female. my mind is racing with what I might be able to do I’m just so fed up with everything. I still can’t get any straight answers from the insurance company or human resources department and in so far as what they’re doing about the deductibles we already paid. they were supposed to take that into consideration until they do any medical I receive I have to pay 100 for. I have 40 days worth of insulin left. a1 month supply costs about 1300 without insurance. I guess I’m a real debbie downer tonight but I can’t help it. if I vent and get it out of my system maybe I’ll feel better about it be able to sleep tonight. now is the time to thank God for the good things that I’ve been given here recently so I will hold me over for the hard time

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Try not to be too dissapointed Liz. Seems we have a plan and God has a different one for us. Things happen for a reason. Maybe there are other things wrong with the house that you don’t know about. A bad roof could have left mold somewhere that has yet to be discovered.
I’ve no doubt that things will work out like they should.
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Lee is on Tuesday nights-his session just ended. Thats a good way to spend an hour!
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How about a GA meeting Liz? You could be meeting new people and work your recovery.
We all need help with the reasons we gambled about in the first place. That is one contention I have with the program-in my opinion we DO need to know why we gambled because if those things go unaddressed before too long we will find an outlet for those issues-be it our “old” addiction or a new compulsive activity to take it’s place. I am told that folk’s who relaspe after a long abstance from gambling are usually the ones who never worked the steps. I am sorry if I am lecturing I just want to share this warning with you and maybe give myself a kick in the behind to get back to my step work.
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I’m not sure what your situtation is however HIPPA laws limit what can and can not be asked of your Dr.
All a dr can say is yes, she’s under my care and not much else.
Tell that union guy the truth-Dr refuses to resend the paperwork.
If you want to ask Harry for my email it’s ok by me. I would be more than happy to “chat” in private via email if only to help you vent.
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Wow Jen time really does fly especially if we’re stuck in the casino with our heads up our butt.
sorry you’re having issues with glad to see u back.
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It’s hard to find the good stuff when all we see is the bad stuff.
I am a pesitmest-I always have been. Its someting I have been working on.
My daughter is now moved and when someone mentions how much I miss my granddogs I start crying. She can care for herself but I worry about them. I am trying to remind myself how fortunate I have been to have her and them so close by for the last 4 years. I walked them during my lunch time. I miss them but wow-it sure was nice while it lasted. I have to be greatful for that.
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Thanks Cat and yes-I would love to see you again. I would love to meet alot of folks from GT and have been fortunate to have met you, Carole, Reds, Debbie and our MIA buddy Larry. It’s a small world really-5 years ago I could not imagine having friends from around the world much less meeting them and making lasting friendships!
I really didn’t get to see Deb much but we did go on a Night Tour of Ft George- a haunted tour guided by a speaker and candlelight! It was creepy and scary and fun! I swear by God that I was touched by a spirit in one of the rooms in the fort! Something ran a finger across my shoulder blade and my friend said she had her pant leg tugged on. I am a pratical person but I know what I felt-and I had my back to the table behind me-no human could have reached me and touched me like that!
Drove 1300 miles in 6 days and I am pooped! Saw many casinos and drove right past! No desire to stop-that is a Blessing and gift of recovery for sure!
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Been super busy today. Me and my friend are staying witha friend of debbies. She is camping near by with her bf and his kids. I haven’t spent much time with her and that is disappointing. My friend wants too go To Buffolo Ny and deb Didnt bring her passporte will meet up hopefully tonorrow evening at the campground.

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They are up to their old tricks at work and I just don’t understand why they want work to be such a stressful place. The manager is telling me we need to punch out 1 hour for lunch even though we take 45 minutes, you know, to cover and little breaks we take during the day. Thats a labor law violation-you can’t charge us time to use the restroom or take a needed snack in my case. I hope a call to HR is not needed but I’ll do what I have to do. I hate confrontation!
I am so glad I will be off next week but I don’t want to come back to stress and bad feelings.
What ever happened to common sense?
My brother passes 12 years ago today. My how time flys! I miss him so much.
On a lighter note me and my gf head to northern Michigan then meet up with Deb at Niagra Falls. It’s supost to rain but I don’t mind-I will be glad to get the heck out of here!
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I’m sorry liz! I do believe we are cousins as except for the gambling I would swear you were talking about my mom!
My sister asked me if I could try to come see my mom and take her out once or twice a month and if my brother could so the same. After my mom heard about this she told my daughter now that she was moving that my sister asked if we could come by because she just couldn’t stand her all the time. Thats her negative twist about everything. My soloution has been to stay away but thats no longer an option. My sister needs a break-but what she doesn’t get is who’s going to clean my house, run my errands etc. My brother has now asked me twice to take his adult daughter on my off day too because she just sits home all week. Sorry to vent-need to get off my soap box and get ready for work.
Take care!
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Liz sounds like she was in the mist of a gambling hangover! She’s blaming everything and everyone-maybe you caused her “bad luck”? She “got caught” gambling, maybe you were the last person she hoped to run into.
No excuse for sure but try not to be hurt with her coments. We know how sick being a cg is.
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Liz sounds like she was in the mist of a gambling hangover! She’s blaming everything and everyone-maybe you caused her “bad luck”? She “got caught” gambling, maybe you were the last person she hoped to run into.
No excuse for sure but try not to be hurt with her coments. We know how sick being a cg is.
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Well things have changed quite a bit for me and for the better.
Keep going to that meeting Lorraine-You are worth it!
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Got a last minuite invite to go out with my friends on their boat and see fireworks at Navy Pier on the 4th-real nice but I was a bit sea sick by the time we were done.
Went to work on Saturday very tired. Asked the assistant about switching my vacation time yet again and she was cool with it as it works better for them. As a side note she mentioned that “they” would be honoring my accomodation and asked if I could work with them. I said that fine. I wish I could have been a fly on the wall when she got told about it and I could have really rubbed her nose in it but I chose to take the high road-and just feel satisified that things are straightened out.
I got my settlement check for the lawsuit we had from the old company taking overtime off our time cards. Timing is great as I will be taking this trip with Deb and I owe Jen money.
My brother saw my mom yesterday. She said Jen’s moving was like a death of her own child. She was glad when her kids moved out but this is very hard for her. I think this is the first honest emotion my mom has ever spoken. I feel bad for her as Jen saw her every week and took her out. I know she will miss her very much.
My knee is better but not 100% so I think it is only a strain.
I will have a long 5 day week but am looking foward to the road trip. My GA friend is coming too. I have been having low sugars the last few days for no reason-thats kind of scary so I would not want to chance a long road trip alone.
My brother came over for a swim as the pool is finally open. He changed my oil and checked out my car today. I am greatful for my brother-he is a really great guy.
God is good-very good!
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