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Kpat thanks for your post. Sometimes I wonder if anyone reads back and thinks who is this crazy person? Being a CG is a rollercoaster ride for sure. Just when I think I have gotten on the kiddy ride I hit one of those really high hills then drop in a freefall! lol! Such is life I guess. I think the difference now is just the way we handle things.
It’s been a trying month for sure. I just got woke up by bill collector-not for myself but for Jen. I know something is up with her, what I’m not sure. My reaction is to bail her out-which of course just enables whatever she is up to. I have decited to give them her cell number the next time they call. She needs to be irritated with the calls-not me. I had so looked foward to a sleep in today. Since I have been ill I just can’t get enough sleep.
I needed to be up anyways- I have a dr appointment in about an hour. I saw the Dr last week and had a standing appointment today. He sent me for bloodwork and told me I could skip today if all was well. I called his office and the nurse said Dr had a note on my file that I needed to keep my appointment. I’m not sure whats up but if he wants a face to face I can only hope for the best. Whatever it is hopefully I’ve gotten an early jump to correct it. God is good and good to me.
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Well it’s taken 14 days and I believe I have finally kicked this sinuis infection. Talk about agony! I don’t think I have ever had one that lasted so long. I used up 3 of my off days so now I only have 2 days left. I wanted to visit Jen but am having trouble getting the days approved. No suprise there. They are a bit resentful that I have been off but heck-I’ve been sick!
More later-
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Hey Carole,
I got an email from Larry and he said to be sure to say hello.
I too have been sick. Chest old I think. I haven’t worked since Wednesday but I must go back tomorrow. Took myself to dinner , my first outing since Thursday, and it really exausted me! I must work tomorrow.
Take care Carole!
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Acho que o maior problema com o chat aberto não sendo usado é porque no site "antigo" você podia olhar o fórum e "ver" quando alguém estava no chat. Quando eu vou lá agora fico cego e fico entediado esperando alguém aparecer. Um segundo problema é que é quase impossível até mesmo encontrar o chat. Se eu fosse novo, nunca o encontraria. bettie

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I think the biggest issue with the open chat not being used is because on the “old” site you could look at the forum and “see” when someone was in the chat. When I go there now I am blind and get bored waiting for someone to show up.
A second issue it that it is almost impossible to even find the chat. If I were brand new I would never find it.
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Hi Guys,
So nice to see some posts from our “larry” today!
I am home sick-I have had a fever since yesterday. I really hate to call out sick but the fact is that I am and it is what it is.
Wrapped in a blanket for most of the day. Made some chicken soup. Kitties have been very snuggly – they always know when I am under the weather.
Saw the diabetic specalist yesterday and she was well pleased with my blood sugar management. My a1c reading is 6.8-non diabetics are between 4-6 so no complaints there. She wants me to loose weight, no suprise there. If that was easy…..
Well thats enough sitting up to type. My head hurts!
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I used to repost this every so often and even read this at my 1 year pinning. So truthful and honest~time to bring it to the top once again

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Thanks P!
Well I survived the weekend trip with my mom. My sister and I had a nice time. I bought a vintage ceder chest on the trip. I got a great deal on it and I love it!
I am getting ready to go camping this weekend -I need to run!
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Hey K,
I remember that feeling when I returned to the casino and slipped the money in the slot. I had gotten a drink, walked around the slots, deciding which one would be the “lucky” one that got my clean date from me. When I hit the button I heard the voice in my head say it didn’t matter because I didn’t matter. Like you too I had contemplated my “slip” wondering what it would be like.
I got my answer and I would guess you did too.
I was reading your earlier posts- your page one from 2009. I am so glad I kept my thread because I can look back and so can you. You got some great advice then that is still true today. I saw a post from Vera-and I wonder about those that posted then that don’t post now. Are they still in recovery? I hope so.
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My dearest Kathryn,
I can relate to the situtation you find yourself in. My heart aches for you. I know when I “slipped” at 16 months how devastated I felt. I dabbled with gambling with the same result over and over for about 6 months before I got fully back on the recovery road.
You know what insanity is-doing the same thing and expecting a different result. A “return to gambling” is the same thing. I have to remind myself the thrill that I once felt can’t ever be felt again and all thats left is the pain.
Praying for your continued recovery
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Tx Liz-
I woke up with a headache. One of the gals at work has a horrable cold and worked on Tuesday. She called off yesterday and the new manager and teller managed were discussing what medicine the Dr gave her and was she contagious and I had to speak up. It doesn’t matter if the Dr signs her off of work until monday then she needs to be off period. I am afraid I might have what she has just in time for vacation! I am really stuffed up. I am glad she went to the Dr and pray I don’t have/get what she has. Diabetics are really at risk with this stuff and I gaven’t had a flu shot yet.
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I think I may have struck a cord here Liz.
I am an “aware” enabler-my recovery has taught me that.
I think its a human tendancy to say if that were my kid I would….. The reality is so much different! No one knows what we would do unless we find ourselves in the situtation.
I hope you didn’t take my suggestion as critical-I got alot out of that book and I think most CG’s would.
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How lovely is is to find posts on my thread today!
Thanks ladies-nice to see the “old gang” here.
I’ve been a crazy person lately. I did some house/dog/babysitting for some friends who went on vacation last week. The child is 16 but managing a teen , well, it’s been a while. Glad they are home!
My baby turned 33 on Monday. I miss her so much! I hope to go see her in November so we will see if I can get the time off.
I am off starting Saturday and I don’t go back until the 14th. I am taking a road trip with my sister and my mom. I couldn’t leave her behind but I have arranged for her to stay with her favorite child- my oldest brother, It’s just 3 nights and me and my sister will stay at the 2 star hotel I got cheap online. Gonna have some sister time and that alone is priceless. We will visit some cousins and my brothers two girls. I will be home for 2 days then off for a camping weekend.
One of my old customers dropped off a gift card for me for the new grocery store in town. I was shocked to find out it was for $75 dollars! I treated myself to some meat-lol! I have been skimping on meat because it costs so much I really can’t afford it like I used to.
Finished the quarter in 4th place of the 33 bankers at work, not bad since I had so little training. God is Good thats for sure!
Vera there is a part two to the “landlord” story. He came back in to speak with the manager. He made a point of stopping by my desk to say something snotty to me. He was more than a bit upset that I wasn’t helping him like he thought I should. One of the last conversations we had I had told him if he ever wanted “things like they used to be” ( fill in the blank based on our past history ) to be sure he called someone else. He told me “by the way I DID want to call you but I remembered what you said so I called someone else”. That caught me off guard and at first I was a little hurt. But see that was the point-to hurt my feelings. Little did he know all he did was cement my position to NEVER EVER return to such an awful and demeaning place in my life. I feel really bad for any woman with poor self esteem who is taken in my his “charms”. I feel even worse for his wife. I was wrong for my part in things thats for sure and I take responsibility and beg God forgiveness for my actions. He, on the other hand, has not learned a thing. He is who he is. No one can change him except himself.
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Hey Carole,
The season 5 of “our show” is avaliable on that site I gave you last year. Just saw the first one today!
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May I recommend “Codependent no more” by Melody Beattie. It was a real eye opener for me. There are stories about familys with kids in similar situtations that you find yourself in. I know many time where I enabled which only prolonged bad behaviour.
Being a “people pleaser” is a very codependent behaviour and I know myself that is a major defect that I have and it is common in CG’s.
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