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We win iv just read your post and am myself new to this community and many others I haven’t gambled in quite a while but only recently admitted that I was a gambling addict and not just that it was a problem it took me losing nearly everything. The advice offered here is a lot better than any I could give I (as can many) can just relate heavily to your story. The systems/hacks money making SURE bets I think iv tried most of them always expecting a different out come it never is and it wasn’t until I realised I could win the lottery and would still justify losing it all gambling that I knew I was in trouble. I know the feeling of not wanting to go on and feeling that the debt is the reason to go back it wasn’t until I was able to separate the two that as @losingitslowly just said the fog lifted and I realised my depression and dark thoughts were indeed partly there because of the debt but predominantly it was the gambling that was causing the spiral I was able to move forward. I’m now trying to move forward day by day and tackling each challenge one by one. I found that QuitGamble had a happiness test and some really helpful course, the change plan is a really good place to start it helped me reflect and write down not just what has happened but to look forward and for the first time in a long time I feel I can look to the future and appreciate what is in front of me.

Sorry for the rant still getting used to writing in forums I hope you are still keeping well and taking it day by day.

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CraigMac6 thanks for the response this is the first time using a forum and admitting it a addiction not just a problem so appreciate your words.

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Velvet, Thankyou for your response and information for the partners. We are trying to work through it all and find mediums that work for us and by finally admitting it and posting on here it feels real and the start of a move in the right direction, for me any way I believe for my wife it’s just the same cycle that has been going on for so long she knew it was a problem way before I could face up to it all.

Thanks again

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Day 2 not of not gambling but day 2 of admitting that I’m a gambling addict and that it’s an issue.
After living a lie for over 2 years and lying to myself and my wife that I wasn’t addicted it has been a massive weight off. A simple step of admitting and owning up to my actions and last night I slept for the first time in a long time.
Just admitting it out loud and reaching out the flood gates have opened and I feel as though I’m looking back over the last couple of years and watching somebody else’s life, I can’t believe I let it get like that or even acted that way it was as though I was possessed(not making excuses).
I’m trying to move forward own up to all the crappy things I did and take it one day at a time, I have found as has been mentioned in other threads writing on here is going to hold me accountable.
The urge is still there and strong the past, and situation I find myself in will always haunt me but for the first time in a long time I feel a sense of relief and hope a calm that I thought was lost.
Such a small and simple step but one that I feel is the start of change.

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