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I appreciate your post. I can relate to it very well. This is my 3rd miserable Christmas with my CG. We’ve had 9 together but the last three have been filled with sadness. I feel as if the more I try and the more I do ON MY OWN, the worse he gets. Almost as if my hppiness pisses him off and he has to stop it…he does. I watch his money dwindled away knowing he’s been no help to me whatsoever. He watches me sruggle needing new glasses or car repair and he chooses not to help me but to give it to the casino instead. I understand this is an illness but how do I keep from taking it so personal when my well being doesn’t mean as much to him as the casino? I’m having a really hard time wrapping my mind around it. Not feeling very “Merry” this Christmas and hoping I can put on a happy face for my family.

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