[Badsportsbettor]

Thanks for the constant support. This group really helps. Me being honest and confronting this disease is what is helping not sitting in the shadows. Yea same here I have been looking at what sparks me and it’s a problem with conflict, a lot of the times with my gf. I have always had some sort of weird financial fear. Always wanting to be the top dog and I thought that was attained through money. 

I was reading something the other day about a story of someone who won 5k one night. Which I can say I have done many times. This person confinues the story by saying how the normal person would take that 5k and run and enjoy every bit of that money. Shut it down right their. The compulsive gambler in most of us on here can’t do it. They continues to say how they would take 4K and put it way to pay things off and gamble with the rest. Then would loose that, then constantly put in more to chase back getting to the 5k. Which is the story of a compulsive gambler to the fullest. We don’t thing rationally and can’t just be happy with a 5k win. Like what are we truely looking for?

[Badsportsbettor]

Hei

som vår er jeg i en stor gjeld. 60k og akkurat i ferd med å stikke dager sammen uten pengespill! Det er dessverre en veldig langsom prosess. Får meg til å reflektere over hvor lett det var å blåse det, men sååå vanskelig å jobbe det tilbake.

Det som må behandles er det faktum at dette er livet vårt nå, bare tenk på hvor enkelt og godt liv Ben vil ha uten at pengespillet og en god mengde inntekter kommer inn! Du vil bli overrasket!

[Badsportsbettor]

Hei

ca și al nostru, sunt într-o cantitate mare de datorii. 60k și tocmai în procesul de a mânca zile împreună fără a juca! Din păcate, este un proces foarte lent. Mă face să reflectez cât de ușor a fost să-l suflu, dar atât de greu să-l rezolv.

Lucrul care trebuie procesat este faptul că aceasta este viața noastră acum, gândiți-vă cât de ușor și de bun va fi viața lui Ben fără jocurile de noroc și o cantitate bună de venit! Vei fi uimit!

[Badsportsbettor]

Hai

seperti kami saya dalam jumlah besar utang. 60k dan hanya dalam proses hari-hari yang menyengat bersama tanpa perjudian! Sayangnya, ini adalah proses yang sangat sangat lambat. Membuat saya merenungkan betapa mudahnya meniupnya tetapi sangat sulit untuk mengembalikannya.

Hal yang perlu diproses adalah kenyataan bahwa ini adalah hidup kita sekarang, pikirkan saja betapa mudah dan enaknya hidup Ben tanpa perjudian dan pemasukan yang banyak! Anda akan kagum!

[Badsportsbettor]

Hey 

like our I am in a large amount of debt. 60k and just in the process of stinging days together without gambling! It is a very very slow process sadly. Makes me reflect how easy it was to blow it but sooo hard to work it back.

The thing that needs to be processed is the fact that this is our life now, just think how easy and good life will Ben without the gambling and a good amount of income coming in! You will be amazed!

[Badsportsbettor]

Hallo

net als onze heb ik een grote schuld. 60k en gewoon in het proces van stekende dagen samen zonder te gokken! Het is een heel erg langzaam proces helaas. Doet me nadenken over hoe gemakkelijk het was om het op te blazen, maar zooo moeilijk om het terug te werken.

Het ding dat moet worden verwerkt, is het feit dat dit ons leven nu is, bedenk eens hoe gemakkelijk en goed het leven Ben zal zijn zonder het gokken en een goede hoeveelheid inkomen! Je zult versteld staan!

[Badsportsbettor]

Хей

като нашия съм в голям дълг. 60 000 и току -що в процес на жилещи дни заедно без хазарт! За съжаление това е много бавен процес. Кара ме да разсъждавам колко лесно беше да го взривя, но много трудно да го върна.

Нещото, което трябва да бъде обработено, е фактът, че това е нашият живот сега, просто си помислете колко лесен и добър ще бъде животът на Бен без хазарта и добри приходи! Ще останете изумени!

[Badsportsbettor]

Привет

Как и у нас, я в большом долгу. 60к и просто в процессе жарких дней вместе без азартных игр! К сожалению, это очень-очень медленный процесс. Заставляет меня задуматься о том, как легко было взорвать его, но ооочень сложно вернуть обратно.

То, что нужно обработать, – это тот факт, что это наша жизнь сейчас, просто подумайте, насколько легкой и хорошей будет Бен без азартных игр и хорошего дохода! Вы будете поражены!

[Badsportsbettor]

Feel pretty good lately. I know I am far far far from the clear. I just seriously feel a clarity again. The last time I stopped gambling I got to roughly 90 days and I remember how I was starting to gain my happiness back again. I seriously feel slightly better. The debt I look back on brings me back down again. I am trying not to focus on that right now though. I am planning to see my therapist every 2 weeks regularly even when I am starting to feel myself “ getting better”.

[Badsportsbettor]

just wanted to say that does seem like a long time and paying for bad choices sucks. I will be paying off my debts for 1-2 years unfortunatel. That being said what is getting me through is knowing if i can do this. I will never have that problem ever again. We do this because it will only get worse and be a problem for the rest of our lives if we don’t tackle it!

[Badsportsbettor]

Hi everyone, still moving on kinda strong.

I had a therapy session last night and it went pretty good. Really trying to break down walls to look inward. Today is always a challenge because it’s football sunday and I’m always triggered sadly. Just need to buckle down and be like you can enjoy the game but not bet on it lol.

[Badsportsbettor]

Well officially 7 days! Very small but a start. Well going to my counsellor today soon so see how this goes. Haven’t really had any thoughts or urges to gamble to be honest. Just anxious about the whole I’ve dug myself into. But hoping if I can keep it together long enough I’ll see things will start getting better!

[Badsportsbettor]

Hey Berta

Can’t come to you and tell you I am em expert because I am still fighting the hardest battle of my life.

That being said we are all behind you. And reading your posts you know what you need to do. You feel the same things I do when I slip. Sick and reminded of how much it changes who you are. It changes how you feel and love and act in every aspect of your life. The hard truth is we can’t live the same life we once lived. We can’t put ourselves in those spots to even have the chance to slip.

Keep strong you got this!

[Badsportsbettor]

Well another day and another gamble free experience. I can’t say I have had to many thoughts of gambling. I have deleted all sports apps from my phone and that has stopped my desire to even look who is playing or who I could potentially bet on. I know this won’t hold solid forever but trying to avoid triggers.

One trigger I had is that I was watching football last night with my family and that’s even hard because it has constant gambling site commercials. I just sit there and feel in shame even when I am not currently gambling. It’s like a silent reminder or something and to the people that know about my problem I start to wounder what they are thinking when they come on.

That being said I have moved past another day and need to keep holding strong. Tomorrow I have another therapist meeting so kinda anxious for that. I have a hard time really opening up but know I need to and get to the bottom of my shit.

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well last night we had a big talk and we are going to try and make it work. I have agreed to go to counselling which I was already doing slowly but I really need to commit. Our issues are much deeper then the gambling issue. She is leaps and bounds ahead of me on the emotional level and I need to address things to learn to catch up. Things I was never taught as a kid and am learning the hard way about now. 

Thinhs are still not good, currently I am sleeping in the basement because we have agreed we are not together until things can make positive steps. the truth is I totally understand her on this, and I am the one that has broken things not her and she deserves to be comfortable.

Anyways I will keep working this battle, I feel so overwhelmed by it but at the end of the day counselling and therapy won’t hurt me and is worth every shot at this point.

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