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I know this may sound like a stigma but things honestly feel so much easier and I feel way happier. I’m back to enjoying life again. I’m enjoying time with family and friends and am actually invested in the time. In the past I was always thinking in the back of my mine hows my team doing that I have bet on. Always sneaking off to the bathroom to check the scores like a drug addict to be honest. I remember in the past pretending my stomach hurt in a restaurant one time to my girlfriend so I could get onto my online account and place more bets.

Just overall feel good not having to lie and cover my lies. Still have a long way to go but I’m getting my life back. My love for life back.

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Well I am official on the one month mark:)

Something I am very happy and proud about but I am aware that I have a large hill to climb yet. Not saying I am not congratulating myself on this, it’s a huge day. The sad thing is I have been here and fell down the hill below sea level before.

I feel like this time my mind is in a different place this time. Last times I have tried I just stopped and thought that was good enough. This time I am on a mission for my soul. To find answers to myself and my life mission. I feel like I am a different person then I was a month ago. I also know I have more soul searching to do and I am determined to meet the new person I am still becoming.

On a side note, I am experiencing hard times like everyone else. I am feeling the extreme stress of putting myself in a financial burden around Christmas time and adding to the debt to buy gifts which I am feeling as a pointless propaganda holiday. Anyways I am also telling myself if I don’t gamble and this time next year things will seem so free and easy. Instead of like years past when I would feel this stress and burden I would gamble to try and free up funds further putting myself in the whole. This year I will not be beat by that same mind set. I am kicking every days ass. I feel empowered by fighting urges and giving myself pats on the back for every single day I fight the addiction.

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These messages are what help keep it all going. Very real and very truthful. Hope you continued success and let’s all keep winning day by day!

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So I am currently on the 4 week mark of no longer gambling. I am very proud of this but feel like I have a long ways to go. Been very frustrated because I have been slow at work and not really making much extra money to cover my debts, just making minimum payments right now and this frustrates me. To be totally honest have been feeling really down lately, not sure fully of what. The debt really gets me down that I have done this to myself.

On another note though I have been going for weekly counselling and to G.A. every week and I feel like I am getting positive results from these things. Just really need to keep living this a day at a time and stay gamble free each day and I know my life will pick back up. Just need to stop thinking about the past because it’s already done and dig and deep and move forward. Reminding myself that gambling will not fix anything, any emotional or financial pain I am in won’t be corrected it will only get worse.

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I will be following! Stay strong and keep your head up. You and I have a similar problem with sports gambling, that being said try and avoid any triggers if you can. I know that’s hard but even watching games can be very challenging!

Stay strong and we are with you!

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Well nothing crazy new to report here. Have really had a break through in honestly the last week. Telling people who have hurt me the truth of my feelings even if it’s made things tense and uncomfortable. Really is a freeing feeling to be honest. Things are starting to feel more comfortable in my life. It’s amazing how much more relaxed you become when your not constantly thinking about how you will get your next funds to gamble or when you are going to loose what you have.

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Hey man thanks for following my post and hope it can help you in any way possible! Wishing you a bet free time and get some clean time like I am doing, it’s starting to feel much better, and my mind feels clear! No I am not in USA I’m north of the boarder in Canada:)

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Well things are still moving along, to be honest I just feel an overall calm I haven’t felt in a while. Won’t lie to you football this past Thursday was a hard test to be honest. Many times in the past that would have been an excuse to gamble because my team was playing.

I even had placed a bet in my mind about who would win which I know is a dangerous thing. The sad thing is I would have been right, that being said I did the same mind bet on the following game and I would have lost that. I then reminded myself you can’t do it anymore, you win then you loose it all the next game. Obviously can’t keep doing that in my mind but it actually gave me satisfaction knowing I resisted and then realized you would have lost it all the next day or so on.

Anyways let’s keep this ball going thanks for listening!

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Well to everyone who follows my posts, yesterday was a terrible day that almost melted me. Luckily I had a counselling meeting that day and things went off very greatly. Yesterday in the past would have been a day I gambled. I didn’t, and actually feel like I turned a really positive corner. I am still struggling with emotional relationship problems but I am working on them. I am discovering that everything will get better, not tomorrow but I’m time if I stay this journey. The journey that I need in my life.

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Everyone I just want to thank you all for your kind and loving words. They seriously help me stay on track. I come back to this post everyday hoping for a boost so thank you!

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Honestly today has been terrible. No gambling or wanting to gamble but everything has crashed down. Relationships are just not doable right now. Just trying to be happy but things are non stop. Feel like I am going to implode. This is where I would normally fall off but I am not doing that. Just going to cope with the problems and move on.

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Well I’m on my way. Still day to day struggles if I am being real. Not really even gambling struggles just having a hard time emotionally with everything. I’m getting help with that. I am confident things will start to feel better after I really get over the thoughts of disappointment. I already feel like my mood is just way more stable after stopping gambling. The roller coaster ride was unbearable now when I am thinking back on it. Constantly worries about when I was going to loose it all again. Thinking that way I’m like how was that even a slight bit enjoyable.

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Woke up today a bit confused and really wondering how and how much hard work this debt will take. Then I got my mind around and realized yes you did this. You simply can’t continue this way or you will be in wayyyyy worse shape eventually. Just starting thinking of all the time I have wasted and how ahead I was at one point:(. That being said I am moving ahead and will keep driving myself to success.

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thanks I will for sure take a look at him, pretty much the only things helping me right now are reflecting and watching videos of peoples stories and reading things on this site!

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Well I went back to G.A. again last night. To be honest it wasn’t good for me this time. We did an open session and this one guy just drive me off the walls. Doesn’t even call himself a compulsive gamble and tries to give everyone advise like he’s some guru and he doesn’t even have much clean time.

That being said I have realized other things, like how life is hard and we deal with all types of triggers and things. I realized I am glad I am not like that guy to be honest lol.

Other then that the gambling has been ok, the urges aren’t around right now. Then again I am still living in the disgust stage, where I fell hard last time was around the 90 day mark I thought I had it. Need to constantly remind myself that this is forever. I don’t want to go back to the dark past but in the future I will need to remind myself of this dark past.

Thanks for listening everyone!

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