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84 diena švari. Na, šiandien yra 84 diena ir nuostabu, kaip puikiai sekasi sujungti dienas. Šiandien turėjau siaubingai sudėtingą dieną darbe, senasis aš lošiau kaip atlygį už šūdą. Beprotiška, kaip veikia priklausomas protas. Vietoj to dalyvausiu „zoom GA“ susitikime. Būkite stiprūs ir susikaupę visi!

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Dag 84 ren. I dag er det dag 84, og det er fantastisk hvordan det føles bra å sette sammen dager. Jeg hadde en fryktelig utfordrende dag i dag på jobben, den gamle meg ville gamble som en belønning for en drittdag. Gal hvordan det avhengige sinnet fungerer. Jeg skal delta på et zoom GA -møte i stedet. Hold dere sterke og fokuserte alle sammen!

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Hi Sunny

I will be following your journey cheering you on. I to am a sports bettor and that normally starts my binges into every form of gambling. What I have found helpful starting out is to not even watch sports or follow scores or anything. I used to look at my sports app everyday and that was a huge trigger for me. This was super hard to do since I love sports almost more then anything, I have slowly started watching again but it’s been nice. Now instead of worrying about who was going to win because it was costing me money, I didn’t care who won I just enjoyed it. That was a huge change for me! Hope any of this helps and stay strong!

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Hello

Your story resembles mine in the form of sports betting. It was what really sank me. I know this isn’t easy but I completed deleted any apps about sports so i didn’t even know what was going on pretty much. That was really hard for me because sports are one of my largest passions. That being said Just watching now for me is a trigger.

Try and find something else you can do that is time consuming. Like for me I started playing sports again instead of watching them and that kills a lot of time. Hope any of this helps and stay strong!

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Здравствуйте! Ваша история похожа на мою в виде ставок на спорт. Это было то, что меня действительно потопило. Я знаю, что это непросто, но я удалил все приложения о спорте, поэтому я даже не знал, что происходит. Для меня это было действительно тяжело, потому что спорт – одно из моих самых больших увлечений. При этом для меня просто смотреть сейчас – это спусковой крючок. Попробуйте найти что-нибудь еще, что отнимет у вас много времени. Как и я, я снова начал заниматься спортом вместо того, чтобы смотреть их, и это убивает много времени. Надеюсь, что это поможет и оставайтесь сильными!

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Well I am proud to say I am in the triple digits. Its a weird but great feeling. I have had urges in this time, simply because I have a lot of free time from the virus. I have been close to giving in but find that when my mind tries to give in I get up and get active. The other day I went for a nice long walk and got so much piece from it. I hope everyone is staying safe in this pandemic and staying gamble free.

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Hello everyone

So I am happy to say that I am still clean since December 24 2019. I am very happy and proud of that number. To be honest with you I am back here because I was extremely close to gambling the other night. Lucky all my bet blockers I have set up kept me from being able to do so. Looking back on it I am so happy that it did. My mind was tricked into just do a little bit it will be ok. I sadly have been down that road and its never ok. Most days when my mind is strong I can keep away. Yesterday I was weak and would have crumbled but thankful for setting up blocks, they do work. I have been goin g through a very hard patch in my life. To be honest lots of it is set up from my gambling downfall. I also do realize I am slowly pulling myself up. With this 3 months I have realized I am regaining myself. My confidence and my inner piece is really starting to show. My ability to focus and put my mind on task is so much better and I am loving this.

Thanks for everyone that has read and followed. Piece and Love.

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Well yesterday I passed the big 3 month milestone. To be honest I was very very happy about that moment. To Ben honest though my life has hit a rough patch. As I was celebrating my 3 months yesterday it was also my grandmas funeral which I couldn’t even attend because of the virus going around. Also times are very stressful with all that is going on with the virus shutting down workplaces. I have not been shut down yet but fear it will be any time now. And to be honest my gf of 5 years and I are going to be breaking up:( and I will be having to move ASAP. I am scared of any progress I have made will be diminished now.

All that being said my old ways I would have panicked and started to gamble again. I did not, I did not even think about it, other then the fact that I though how turned off of it I am. Funny because I actually gave myself a pat on the back when I realized it was my 3 months and said good job to myself. The only person that has known about this problem in my everyday life was my gf and she isn’t around anymore to tell. But I am just rolling with the punches of life and know I will be able to fight back if I avoid gambling….and I am.

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I really appreciate those words. You are right what is life if we don’t learn from it. The bed feelings of that day have passed and I feel optimistic now that I stopped gambling for another day. I am working hard and will be able to beat this. 

I am am changing my mind frame and know that if I didn’t stop I would be fighting this for the rest of my life. When I really step back I know that I am still young and can still achieve lots in my life……ONLY if I stop now and thankfully I am.

thanks

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So I am creeping up to 3 months gamble free and that is something I am very proud of. With that being said I am having my struggles. To be honest it’s not even really urges of gambling. I am having troubles with the debts I have created and coping with the mess I have created gambling for years. I feel very relieved and happy that if I keep going on this path I will be free and never have this same problem again.

That being said all the scars are still so fresh and I have to live with the fact that I have basically gone backwards in the last few years. If this illness hadn’t have progressed at my age I would be doing so very very good for myself. Now I am faced with a lot of debt and a sad truth of a large global recession approaching. This scares me because I don’t know how I’ll be able to claw out of debt. I have been lucky to make good money up until this point but I have fears of all of that ending. Just hard to sit with myself and think that if I hadn’t of done this I wouldn’t have any fears. I would be living comfortably and everything I have worked so hard for would have been worth it.

I now feel like the last 10 years have been wasted:(

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Hello

I just read a bunch of your log and it is very inspiring. I am coming up to 3 months myself and am loving the clarity and how life seems to have a glow to it again after about 15 years of created devastation. Keep on being positive and let’s all support each other on this sickness. The debts are something that can be fixed but it’s the change in our soul that will really make the big payoff by stopping.

Keep going!

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Thanks

This is very true, without even realizing it, I was sitting at home alone last night and the gamble bug snuck up trying to get me because of boredom and loneliness. I took several deep breaths and reminded myself not today that won’t help anything. Then turned on my Xbox and watched a movie and it passed.

Thanks

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Hi everyone.

It’s been a long time since I posted. And to be honest I have relapsed since my last posts but I have since got back on track. I had a huge fight with my gf around Christmas time and it caused me to gamble on Christmas Eve.

That being said I have really got myself going strong since then. I have faced many many hard moments since then but still fighting the urge.

Life has honestly become a lot easier. I am experiencing joy again and life honestly seems enjoyable again at times. I have really put my head down and continued working my ass off. I a slowly paying off debts and have money in my account. It has been a very nice feeling.

I just recently found out my grandmother passed away and to be honest has been hard. Me and my gf have gotten in another huge fight and this would normally be enough to set me off. I am writing on the forum to get some support from everyone on here to continue to make it past this.

I have been going to counselling and have been doing a lot of self work. This has all been very very hard but I am doing it because it is necessary.

Anyways I’ll take 24 and pass on 24 stay sober everyone life is hard but we make it wayyyy harder by gambling.

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Just wanting to check in, life to be honest has been going great. I am finding my happiness back. I still have the debt but I am starting to accept to myself that it’s just money and if you stop gambling will seriously be cleared up so fast.

I find myself being funny again, and people wanting to be around me. Something I felt was not possible when I was gambling.

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Still gamble free and I’m loving it. Still having hardships with the debt I have caused. I have a feeling of joy and telling myself if you just work hard and don’t gamble this will never be a problem in your life again.

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