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Woke up early this morning. Ready for another day of gamble free time. So tired and stressed out. Need the weekend, badly!

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Superb advice. Thank you V. I wish you well in recovery too!

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Wow. Stress levels are sky high and I’m currently feeling emotionally tired too. I’ve not had much patience today at all; but most importantly, I’ve not put any bets on. Day eleven now. Day by day, my recovery is accumulating. Just over a week until pay day…

Thanks for your support.

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Thanks so much kpat. I am focusing on positives today. Need to keep my gamble free life going. Every Saturday a week will pass and I’ll be closer to sorting my finances ad my life out. I have a plan. I need to book my hostel for Paris next April for hwne I run the marathon. That is my goal. Also significantly reducing my overdraft with my bank. They are two jobs that I will be doing immediately next week when I get paid.

Thanks again for your support, it is invaluable!

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Thanks so much FG. All of my efforts are going into keeping positive today and knowing that in less than a week, my finances will not be solved, but looking much brighter. That allows me to become happier knowing that with each day passing, I am establishing positive habits and living a gamble free life. Thanks so much for your support!

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I’m still stressed and so tired, but work is keeping me going. I’ve reached double figures now, a huge milestone for me. Day TEN, wow. Feels like fifty, but ten will do for now. My overriding feeling today, is that I cannot go back to day one. I need to keep this up, otherwise I have wasted ten whole days of effort and courage. How could I do that to myself again?

To get through this, I need to tackle it head on. I never want to feel like this ever again in my life. So when I get paid next week, my number one priority is to retain funds and keep myself busy. I cannot let myself drop back to day one after this time and effort…

Thanks for your support.

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More stresses in work. I’m at a really low ebb. All of my powers are on stopping betting and being able to live the life of a normal human being. I’m at almost the depressed state at the minute. Working fifteen hours a day. Still no bet, get to double figures tomorrow!

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The urge of gambling is getting stronger, but I am fighting it. Watched lots of football today, but no bet. Still feel lethargic and negative, but eight days down and the long road still ahead! Each day feels like a month! Thanks for your support.

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Thanks so much kpat. It is just one thing after another this week. I was meant to be out tonight, a big gang of us going to a gig, but I couldn’t. Mainly due to depression, but also due to the lack of money that I have because of my gambling. It really hurts. I just feel isolated all of the time. Compulsive gambling is a lonely place. Thanks for your comment as always…

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Thanks so much sad69. Your comment has given me a whole new outlook in my fight. Each day that passes. Each hour, is a milestone. It is so tough. I have a love for football and I’m still in the mindset of thinking about particular odds and ‘would I have put a particular bet on.’ Pay day will be the ultimate challenge, but hopefully I’ll feel stronger by then.

Ultimately, I feel really low at the moment. Like I’m falling into depression. It’s difficult to keep positive, but I know that I need to keep away from any temptation. This blog has helped me so much this week. Thank you for all of your replies. Keep them coming!

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Had a really difficult day emotionally. Need to keep strong, otherwise it will creep back up to me again. Head is totally switched off and feel really negative today.

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I’m clearly agitated today, but all work related stresses. Although, the thought of my debts are adding to my stress. I’m down because I’m working fifteen hour days at the moment completing tedious, but compulsory paperwork tasks that really annoy me. Every facet of my job at the moment is aggravating me. Not gambling is making me feel better, but the thoughts are still there and five days is no huge milestone as yet. It is still very much early days.

Time goes so slow when you are waiting to reach a particular milestone. Two weeks until pay day.

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Tough day. Tiring working day that has had me thinking really negatively. I’m simply exhausted at the minute. Had a few bursts of gambling thoughts today. Just feeling really down today. Think a good night of sleep will do me good. Thanks for the replies, I’ve not had a minute to read the parable or watch the video yet, sorry!

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Thank you FG. I’m still at a really low point. No money until the end of the month, even then I’ll be battling my overdraft again. Day by day, hour by hour at the moment. How busy I am in work helps. Yeah frenzy, palpitations, depression, not wanting to talk to anybody. Just wanting to lie down in a darkened room… Thanks again for your support!

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Thanks so much FG. Gambling has been prominently on my mind today. It has been difficult to quash the thoughts, but I have tons of work to do. Writing this blog is helping me so much. Your replies are my motivation at the moment. Every time that I write a message, I think that it’s another day done with. It’s extremely therapeutic. I can gain control again. I know the real challenge will be when pay day comes around again and retaining my money.

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