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I just realized the post I replied was in 2010 . now its 2018. I am curious to know did you gamble again? if not how are you feeling in those 8 years. Are you happy now?
Hello Bettie,
Excuse my english , as i ma nota bative speaker. I have been reading all your guys stories for last 1 week. I used to get up 3 a.m in night and start reading stories about gambles on diffeent pages and websites.
I also Destroyed ton of money around 250 k, all my savings , credit cards are fucked up. I wa not a casino guy. I was a successfull engineer who moved to canada from India . I saved in the begining and bonught a brand new home. I was ahead in my friend circle , and i was living aline in that house and was a party guy. Life was fun during that time. I knew when i will sell this house , i ma gonna lot of profit out of this and then I will invest in another house and then money money money….
But sometime you think, dont happen that way. Once i went to the caino for fun, because 2 of my freind never went to casino , and they forced me to take them there. I toll them there , it was my birthday on that day. I also palyed Roullet and casino WAR. MY bad luck is that I “WON”. And after that i always thot of going to casino near by. slowly and slowly i started going to caino on daily basis. and the money that i won first tim that is 1000 dollor , I lost that money . nad my bad day started. I was new to casino and got panicked that i just made 1000 dollpr last week , how come I lost that . I started chasing that 1000 dollor and in that chase I lost 10000. now i was 10000 down. Then i thot why i ma coming here daily. Lets make online account i will make 400 dollor daily online and in a month iI will recover my losses.
I made a account on PLAY OLG and betway. And I won 20k in 2 days. I recovered all of my money. That thinh hooked me in MAN. Alas. I had lost!!. Then next week i lost that 20 k as well and i again got panic and lost 20 k more from my credit card. And the coundown of lose-Win started. I did not know that i ma being CG day by day and this addiction will kill me eventyally . I stopped going to work , started taking sick days and kepy palying casino all day and night sitting in my room without bat and without brushing my teeth in hope of getting my money back.
When iI usually Win big money then my mind used to to get excited with that thrill and greed. I ended up giving them all winning and more from my credit card. One night Igave them 50 k in 2 hours . I did not have value for money during that time. Money was like a plain papaer for me. It was all going to casino accounts. Then Finally I was under 200 k debt. And only 2000 in my checqing account. I used to go banks and beg them to give me more money . I did not tell my parents. Thaye asked me to sell the house and buy a new home near them so that they can move with me. when i was seeing a huge debt on me , that was the only way to pay the debts. I sold my brand new home , clear all the debts and had to buy a 45 years small house, because i could not affrod a good one. As 200k gone in waste.
Then i renovate the house and again started playing to get some money back . Again i gambled away 50 k from credits cards and got panicked.
One day I deposted 3k and started playing roullet, and i cany beleive myself i made 72 k in just 2 days.
I was happy WOW i beat the casino ,now all my debt will be clear and i will also recover my previous money. That was a ******* bad IDEA. I should have cashed out 70 k and self excluded. But that winning thrill did not let that happen. My greed to make 100k now was at the Top and i wanted to make 100k ASAP and buy a luxury CAR. ******* greediness.
its unbeliveable I ost that 70 k in one night, I could not STOP my self that atleast keep 20k . iwanted my 70k or i wanted notheing. After i lost that 70 k my mond was under lot of ooressure , and same night i gambled away 5k more form my savings and started crying in the end what the blunder i just did.
Now I am feeling so guily why i was being so greedy for that money. Even i won , i lost that back all to them. And now crying under Debt. I can not buy new things for my HOme. My mom just do a $8/hour job. she just makes 800/month but still help me somehow. I am feeling ******* guilty blew away 250 k in just 1.5 yearr…. i ma from a midlle class family.. I would have given lot of happiness to my mom with that money. Now she has to work as well at this age. She has pain in her legs but she still works cause she knows i have debt,, but she does not know how i have those debts. shes thinking i have becaue i changed the house .. I am feeling so ******* stupid person…
I know guys i wrote a lot. Now everyday i jsut keep thinking about the blunder i did inmy life. I wa successfull ahead of my friend circle now i ma left behind under the debt.
I ma trying to get out of it. Hope goD will help me and give me strength.. This Gamble will fuck everybody life who is playin eventually.. Better Stay Away and start a new life.