[Amir Zaky]

If I may ask you about your religious beliefs, just because don’t want to keep mentioning biblical words if you don’t believe in it.

please forgive me and ignore the question if you think it’s inappropriate.

Amir

[Amir Zaky]

Hello Meghna,

please stop thinking about the money you lost and the money you still need to make your deposit for the house, that’s a very good trigger to start gambling.

U can buy one of those investment pots that banks offers ( not sure about the right english term for it) u make the deposit and the bank keeps the money away for a year and gives it back with some interest. i think that’s the best way to save your money is to keep it out of your reach for a good amount of time.

U made this money once and you will make it again, do not worry.

” So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten” Joel 2:25

Keep praying, and i’m praying for you.
Stay strong, and please stop thinking about the money.

Amir

[Amir Zaky]

Hello Meghna,

i have logged in just because u r keep coming across my mind and I’m only logging to check on your updates, u can’t imagine how much your message is making me happy.

I had very good happy vacation, then relapsed, win and loss several times, finally i have stopped with a small win.

i started to realise that i will never stop unless i don’t have the means to gamble.

not feeling so good, but fortunately i din’t lose extra cash.

Thanks very much Meghna, now moving to your thread to check-up on your updates.

[Amir Zaky]

Hello Meghna,

I’m happy for you that you are keep trying and i’m very angry that we keep relapsing.

i totally agree with you that enjoy living our lives and make use of our day is a good way to feel that life is better away from gambling
me too when i felt an urge for playing few days ago ( i w as telling myself i will only play with 100 USD- withdraw if i reached 500- we all know that this will never be the case) so i took this 100 and bought 10 meals and went for a drive with a friend looking for homeless people (not beggars), i was shocked to found people in Cairo streets that didn’t ate for a week and he super happy was only a meal.
i got back home not thinking at all about gambling, feeling stupid of wasting money that even a tiny piece of this money (the value of a side bet) can really help someone else.

The thousands we waste can be someone’s else miracle.

I wish we all don’t forget that we are all here because we can’t control our gambling habits and it’s better to not trust ourselves with the means to play.

[Amir Zaky]

Hello Low77, u sounds like you already know what will happen next if kept chasing that lose. it’s the same story we all have been throw.

no one here didn’t experience some good winnings, everyone who lost wants to win back what have been lost, but that will not happen. only more damage will happen.

U did great coming to here, it’s time to stop and enjoy a life free of gambling. there is no need for the pain, stress and depression that you can avoid by choosing to stop playing anymore.

I’m only one day earlier than you to this forum so i don’t have much of an advice but sure will get a lot of support and advice here.

[Amir Zaky]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wirV265ZYSw

[Amir Zaky]

Thanks Running Girl,

I think you are right, and as much as possible of weapons to be used against this gambling illness would give the best chances of curing.

I’m facing lack of resources in Egypt as councelling is not available for gambling related issues, also meditation is not that common but i found the below youtube channel that i think it’s okay for me to start with to lear to medidate, also i got myself a gym memebership, and most of my focus is on the spiritual side ( spending some good time with the bible, praying ,.. )

I have also request few minutes ago from my bank to send me replacment credit cards so i can scratch off the 3 security numbers on the back.

You can’t imagine how much it’s helpful for me this website and the people’s interaction with me, the support and the advices i’m getting is filling me with energy. and reading other peoples struggle makes me really scared as the stories makes sure that the win is not going to happen and dammage will only increase if i kept gambling.

Thanks Running Girl 🙂 

[Amir Zaky]

Hopefully that’s would be a gambling free day for all of us.

Yes, we are those who understood that we cannot control everything, and maybe that would be a good start with a belief that some other might have some hard time to accept.

” for without me you can do nothing” John 15:5.

Let’s look a the bright side that we did lost money but we gained a belief that can be the key to a new way full of blessings knowing that this way can replace our weak and limited capabilities with God’s unlimited capabilities.

Amir

[Amir Zaky]

that’s today message to myself:

“For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world and loses his own soul?” Matthew 16:26.

I think i already lost a big part of my whole world, there is no reason to lose my soul walking this route of chasing losses and trying to win back. Enough is enough and let’s work on redeeming my soul.

[Amir Zaky]

I’m considering to start learning to meditate, hopefully if may help. as i do understand that meditation is all about controlling the mind and thought THAT REALLY WHAT I NEED TO STOP.
i will start looking for a youtube channel that teaches meditation and will give it a try, will keep sharing the updates on this tread as some sort of documentation

[Amir Zaky]

I have read your thread when u replied to mine with very good advice, and i’m really impressed with your fight.

I want to comment on the guilt and shame feelings you have mentioned, as I feel exactly the same, I’m worried that something may happen and I will be forced to explain to my family that I was so stupid that I wasted my savings of the last 3 years and the upcoming 1 or 2 years also playing cards and that intelligent responsible man you have raised is nothing but a lie. but also I can’t say that i’m totally pleased with the previous me, who when he was successful and having enough money to save wasn’t that good man, and maybe this humiliation I feel is very useful for me on a spiritual level to realise how vulnerable is a human and be really humble and accepts this lesson and all the future ones while being broken and poor in spirit. knowing that my smartness and capabilities didn’t led me to a good situation and I need to improve and I do need God’s grace in my life.

I think you are a great mom and you are an impressive fighter, and you should not worry about people’s opinion in you as you are doing great job.

please excuse my english as it’s my third language, and i do apologize for being religious in my reply.

[Amir Zaky]

I think u did great by removing those groups from facebook and whatsapp, there is no need to keep those groups that may trigger u back. It’s also my day 2 and the weekend is not easy for me also.

[Amir Zaky]

I have read your message several times, and i think you have a great point that i’m giving so much thinking and analysis to a side issue and all my focus and effort should be directed TO STOP GAMBLING. 

[Amir Zaky]

for the past the three month i have been thinking about gambling most of the time, sometimes thinking about playing and win back, sometimes thinking about just stopping.

I have an idea for few days now that i can’t get out of my head, it is that gambling is a disease that only got a chance with me because it found an emptiness and greed in me. and in the process of seeking an answer i was looking for a biblical one and so i found this ” The Generous soul will be made rich, and he who waters will also be watered himself” Proverbs 11:25

not sure if that the answer or not, but i’m keep thinking that the way out would be to stop thinking about myself and my problem and start to help others and this would take the emptiness and selfishness away, and with that Gambling will not find a space in my thoughts or soul.

I not sure about anything at this point , but that’s the idea i have for some time now, not sure if that the answer or not, may be it’s too early for that phase and i just need to focus on my problem then helping other can come in a further stage.

[Amir Zaky]

Thank you.

Yes off course I’m addicted to gambling, and i do addmit that.

I had several discussions with my best friend asking for his support as i have realised three month ago that i cannot control my addiction by my own. 

i gave him the credentials to change the passwords to my two online casino accounts and i enjoyed three month gambling free and alomst settled my CC debt, but one week ago i found two more sites that accepts gamblers from Egypt.

again i gave him the credientials to lock me out, and the good think that it’s very rare to found sites that would accepts players from Egypt, as the last two i found were founded in Jan 2019. hopefuly i stop searching for new websites.

also he now has access to my bank account as he acceptts to make a daily check on it, to make me feel embarrased if i broke my word of not gambling again, or may be to react if he found that i made another deposit to a casino.

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