[alwaysthefish]

Thanks RG. Will check the software first thing tomorrow. Going to bed now. Survived this afternoon and this evening, watched some shows and played some games with my boy.
If you dine with the devil, bring a long spoon– 6/9/2013 7:42:13 AM: post edited by AlwaysTheFish.

[alwaysthefish]

Dang, I’m having the urge to play again. The only way I can play now is on my iPad. All my computers have gambling bocking software on them as of a few days ago. And I know I would probably be cheaper-off breaking the thing in pieces, than leaving it around within reach. But I can’t do that because my kid uses it for his games often.
I need distratctions. I’m going to watch some show and go for a walk later. And I need to find a way to disable that iPad for gambling software. Almost bought the new samsung S4 phone today. But then I realized I would probably be able to play on that too and quickly changed my mind. Will stick to the good old blackberry. No poker there, that’s for sure.
It seems so simple and easy and yet it is soooo hard – refraining from gambling. If I could, I’d give 50K euros this very moment (even though it’s a lot of money to me) never to gamble again! I just know I’m more than likely to lose that much in the course of 2-3 years anyway. And I’m powerless over that. How sad is that…
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[alwaysthefish]

OK, I installed Gamblock on my windows machine (I wasn’t aware of Betfilter at the time. Is there any major difference btw?) and K9-protection on my two Mac computers a few days ago.
Then yesterday night, after posting here, I don’t know how or why, I remembered I have an ipad too. Quickly installed poker software there, deposited 200$ and ran it up to 900$, then went to sleep. This particular website doesn’t let you cashout 48 hours after last deposit. Then this morning, I lost the 900$ in the blink of an eye, deposited another 200$, lost it, deposited 240$ with which I thankfully exhausted daily limit. Lost that too, needless to say.
Can someone help me? Is there a gamble-blocking software, for iPad and mobile devices, that works? Something that won’t be erased when I wipe-clean my device.
I’m fairly computer savvy. Gamblock, however, I wouldn’t be able to remove. K9-protection I probably could if I really tried, but it would take me a couple of hours, maybe longer. I usually don’t want to wait that long when a wonderful idea of gambling pops-up in my mind.
Btw, for those of you using Mac, K9-protection is free and a fairly good application. Here’s what you need to do: remove ALL gambling clients from your computer. Then set up a **** email address with a very complicated password, something like ‘dflsjdal452lj2k3jl2j2342’. Then sign-up with K9-protection using that email address and password protect it with another complicated password (or use the same one, doesn’t really matter). Once installed, flush the password down the toilette and voila.
You will not be able to acces any gambling sites and you won’t be able to request password recovery since you won’t be able access the email address they would send it to.
Anyway, anyone know of any mobile devices protection that works?
I’m so angry with myself for giving in to my urge last night. But it’s not just the anger, it’s this overwhelming feeling of helplessness and disillusion that’s really frightening. Thea’s post and progress are so inspiring, wonderful even, and yet, what do I do mere hours after reading it? So sad!
 
 
If you dine with the devil, bring a long spoon– 6/8/2013 9:42:40 AM: post edited by AlwaysTheFish.

[alwaysthefish]

I really enjoyed reading this thread. I took my time and read every single post in it. I’ve been gambling since childhood myself. I’m 42 now. I’ve been combating my gambling urge for decades, sometimes succesfully, sometimes not so much.
I used to be a succesful poker player. I was succesful despite my gambling nature. That was when the games were soft. In the mean time the games got tougher, the players got better and I never bothered to work on my game and improve it. And as a result I’ve been losing badly last couple of years.
I don’t really think the One Day at a Time mantra works out for me very well. Sometimes I don’t gamble for weeks, but then I play one night and lose it all (all I possibly could lose for the period). So what’s the difference? I really liked the way Vera put it: Not gambling is not the same as a complete recovery.
Mythea (and the rest of you here) read The Willpowever Instinct by Kelly McGonigal. Many things are explained there in an amazing way.
 
 
 
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[alwaysthefish]

Thanks bettie   :)If you dine with the devil, bring a long spoon

[alwaysthefish]

I’m new here, what does CG stand for?  
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[alwaysthefish]

One book I would recommend to everyone is: The WIllpower Instinct by Kelly McGonigal
http://www.amazon.com/The-Willpower-Instinct-Self-Control-Matters/dp/1583334386/ref=sr_1_fkmr1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1370459640&sr=1-1-fkmr1&keywords=willpower+kelly+mc
An amazing book by all accounts. I often thought about my addiction and reasons behind it. This woman explains it in details. I knew or at least suspected many of the things she writes about, but she presents it eloquently, it’s all logical, makes a lot of sense and it is easy to understand.
Make sure you read this book. Audio version available as well at http://www.audible.com
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