[alliWG13]

Thank you for your message. I will try and hold on to your kind words. I am very grateful for you taking the time to post. Wishing you a happy new year.

[alliWG13]

This addiction is going to kill me. I f***ed up again. I want oblivion.

[alliWG13]

Thank you for the support and comments. I really appreciate it. Today is my daughter’s 13th birthday and I feel just about as low as I ever have. I’ve let myself down again and been to the bookies to gamble, consequently I feel like s**t all over again. I’m determined to give my daughter a nice day – she deserves it – but inside I feel like I want to give up on everything. We’re having a very low key family party later and I have to put on a front and pretend I’m feeling ok. The truth is I feel suicidal and find myself thinking about it more and more, how I could do it, when and where etc. My children have have always been a great protective factor, I adore them and would never want to do anything to hurt them, but I feel increasingly detached from everything. Despite the support I have this is a very lonely addiction. I just don’t know if I have the strength to carry on anymore. If gambling were my only problem I might feel like fighting it, but I have so many other problems health wise, financially, personally. I’m sick of it all.

[alliWG13]

Hi Ray – let me know when would be a good time to chat. I can do most evenings later on i.e. past 9pm. I understand exactly how you’re feeling – I’ve been/am there and it’s hell but we can move forward. Hang on in there – Alli

[alliWG13]

Hi Ray
I’m new to these forums too and feeling hopeless about my gambling and life in general. I don’t have any answers but I’d be very happy to chat sometime. Maybe we could help each other stay focused. Not really sure how this all works but get back to me if you’re interested in chatting. Hope you’re doing ok today. Take it easy – Alli

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