[alliesmum]

Ден 2 без хазарт и се чувствам доста позитивен за пътя си към възстановяване, въпреки че знам, че най -трудното време ще бъде, когато отново ми плащат. Тъмните мисли, които ме бяха погълнали, засега отшумяха и се надявам да останат такива! Току -що получих днес = няма да залагам!

[alliesmum]

Hi Dj
Thanks for the reply.
Have you thought about putting your story on the forum? I find it very helpful and no one here will judge. Recovery is one of the hardest things I’ve ever tried to do but to do so we need help and support. Everyone here, including myself, knows what you are feeling and going through.
Also I was once told here not to dwell on the money we’ve lost or the things that we’ve done in the past to gamble. If we continue to dwell then we are always stuck there in the past and it makes it impossible to move forward. No pressure. Just a thought.
If you need someone to chat to please feel free to drop me a message and I will respond as soon as I can.
Take care

[alliesmum]

Day 36 for me and I am still in recovery.. Never in my wildest dreams did I think I would get this far!

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Я только что заказал копию этой книги .. Спасибо, что поделились слотом ☺☺

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I have just ordered a copy of this book.. thanks for sharing slotjunkie ☺☺

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Hi IDI
Thanks for the post on my thread. Day 24 and continuing to push through. Only 4 more sleeps until our holiday which never would have been possible if I was still gambling. I have very excited kiddies and it feels great to be doing this for them!
As for the gambling I actually don’t miss it as much as I thought I would. Don’t get me wrong there are still days I’d love a flutter but I don’t and don’t have the means to do so either.
As for your post about meeting a friend for a coffee some time if you’re ever up my way I’d be happy to be that friend. I know you maybe aren’t keen but the offer is there and if you ever want to take me up on it just give me a shout.
I hope everything is going well for you xxx

[alliesmum]

Day 21 for me today and I am still gamble free..
I hadn’t really had any urges until yesterday. The urges kept coming and going yesterday and to be honest I was struggling but hey I’m still here. I no longer have the means to gamble and if I did I think I would of yesterday. I am nowhere near ready to take back financial responsibility yet. This process is a slow one but if I just keep pushing through it is can do this!
I hope everyone here is doing well on their own journeys and if not just pick yourself back up and keep pushing forward.
Hope to maybe catch some of you on chat tonight.
Thank you everyone who has taken the time to leave me messages of support and be there for me even when I am not here.
Take care all and stay gamble free

[alliesmum]

Day 14 for me and still going strong!
Not sure if it’s easier this time around because I’ve tried and failed before or maybe this time I’m more ready to change my life – either way it’s day 14 and I haven’t gambled and I haven’t got the means or desire to gamble either.

[alliesmum]

Lizbeth don’t give up.
As someone who has tried and failed many times to stop gambling I know how you’re feeling today. It’s only day 11 for me today so it was too long ago I was in your shoes, I had relapsed again.
You don’t want to feel this way again do you? If not then you need to start back at day 1 and remember what helped you to succeed. What barriers need put back in place? What triggered you to gamble?
We all deserve a better life than what we get with gambling. YOU deserve a better life Lizbeth!
I know how hard it is to climb out of the darkness and back into the light but you can do it. It is worth it. You are worth it.

Happiness can be found even in the darkest of places if one only remembers to turn on the light.
Stay positive

[alliesmum]

Hi IDI
Just checking in. It’s not like you not to have been on in the last 2days.. I hope everything is okay with you?

[alliesmum]

Hi Laura
I hope you are recovering well and aren’t pushing yourself too hard 🙂
A new car? Aren’t you a lucky duck! Not gambling has its advantages and is worth it!
Hope to catch you in group sometime

[alliesmum]

Sometimes in life we need to step back and appreciate the little things..
For me today that was being able to pay a bill on time and also lodging extra money so the hubby can order extra things for the kids for their holidays while I’m at my night class (i still have nothing to do with the bank card).
This was such a nice feeling. A feeling of pride and accomplishment.. Something I haven’t felt for a long time.
I am now on day 10 and after being able to lodge that small amount of money for the kids I am feeling a lot more positive and I can also see the advantages of not gambling.
Onwards and upwards for me!

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Day 8 for me today.
There is still no sign of any real strong urges to gamble which is frightening – what if these urges just jump out and take over? What if I can do nothing to stop them? What if I am powerless to them?
I am not powerless, I am a strong and independent woman who can take this demon on! I am the leading lady in my own life and therefore this is my choice and my decision. I just need to take time to think things through before I act on impulse.

ADDICTION : the disease that makes you too selfish to see the havoc you have created or care about the people whose lives you have shattered.

I am hoping to get back from work in time for the 10pm group. . Maybe I’ll see some of you there.
Thanks for all the support.

[alliesmum]

Hi IDI
Hope all is well with you!
I love that you bought your kid the most expensive trainers in the shop rather than the 20 mins gambling. I’ve been there far too many times and know how quick a lump sum of money can disappear. . I bet he now tells everyone that he has the best mum ever!
Dinner party also sounds like a fab idea! I think I might steal that idea when I come back from holiday.. There are a few people I’d like to reconnect with and that sounds like a great way to do it!
You are making fantastic progress and I wish you only the best.
Week 10! You’re awesome!

[alliesmum]

Day 7 for me today.
Feeling very positive about my recovery today.
Barriers are still in place and have prevented me from gambling today which was one of my ‘normal’ gambling days.. So far so good!
I have been keeping myself busy and trying not to dwell on the what ifs or the just one deposit won’t hurt days.
I feel like I have more support this time around. I think my husband understands a little more that I actually don’t want to gamble anymore , that this is an addiction and that I am trying to control it instead of it controlling me. No bank cards for me. Hubby has been lifting money from the atm as and when I need it.
This is my time. This time I can turn my life around.

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