Thank you Velvet for your lovely message. I actually read it when I awoke in the middle of the night. Wonderfully it dissipated my anger straight away, I had a bit of a cry and then I woke up my husband to say sorry and tell him I love him.
I am very lucky to have a supportive family and a great group of friends. They are great at listening and helping distract me when I need it. However, I didn’t realise how much I just needed someone to say there was hope until I read your reply.
I swing from feeling in control and believing that if I support my husband he will be able to be the man I want him to be and that we can rebuild the trust. Then I swing to hating him, feeling like he duped me in to marrying him, feeling a fool, feeling guilty and so so angry. Is this normal?
I am a really positive person and I can’t wait to feel happy and make jokes again- it feels like forever since my husband and I have laughed.
Thank you again so much,
Ali
