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Hi Jack

I’m a gambler, roulette is one of my favourite games, but I like to gamble on sports also. I have started 5 yrs ago, going into a casino with some friends, at first didn’t understand the game, but I felt the urge to demonstrate my abillities, and gambled 100 $. Call it begginers luck, but I doubled my money. From there all my problems began to appear. I have lost more than 450k, gamble from roulette to poker and sports, asking myself why? I think gamblers have in common the need to feel appreciated, we want to show other people we can win at something people say it’s impossible to win. We continue to gamble not for winning back the money we lost, but because we cannot accept we lost this “battle” with ourselves. Most of the people who develop gambling addiction are intelligent and succesfull, why is that? Because if you never give up on anything in your life how can you give up on gambling and admit you lost? I hadn’t gambled for almost 2 years and then started from placing a bet of 10€. Just let it go, admit you are not a lucky person, maybe you’re just smart and that’s it. Last year after loosing a huge amount of money I tried to comit suicide, because I didn’t think I can handle the shame, the blame and having let the people close to me down. But I didn’t, and I forgot that, and gambled again since I met someone in my situation, I met the guy in a casino, he was drunk, he said that was his first time he drank something in that casino though he lost his home, car and almost 750k. He sent texts to his friends and family that he’s going to comit suicide, and he’s sorry for all the things he’d done. He’s alive right now and working on his addiction. I don’t have any other addiction, though I smoke ar parties have a drink from time to time, so as someone with no other vices how can I have this? I think it’s foolish, and it’s something we can deal with. I wanted to say you’re not insane, and it’s normal to be this hard. But you can do this, all of us can! God bless you all!

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