[Adam26]

Been very busy at work last couple of days. Been doing a canvas drawing of Batman. So I guess that goes a long way to telling you how busy it really is at my work. Boredom is the killer in this place. Usually I’d fill my time gambling. Need to keep myself occupied though.

[Adam26]

Well I’m not sure if someone shit in their cereal, but Coors were here before me this morning! That’s never happened before. This was probably the first time I’ve been out on time since they started delivering to us. So I can’t even bitch about that today.
Still not got my bike back from the shop though. Could probably whine about that for a bit… Aight, maybe not.
I did however sell a rare Stevie Gerrard item this morning. It was a doodle he’d drawn for National Doodle Day. As I bit of an artist myself it was one of my favourite pieces. But 200 quids a lot to turn down, especially since I keep it in a folder under my bed where I can never see it. So that’s a few more quid towards the savings. I’m quickly creeping up on the five grand mark. That will be half way towards my goal of not feeling like a complete failure! Ten grand was the amount left to me by my grandparents and was the amount I promised myself I’d never go into… But I did, and now I have to get it back! I can’t let anything stop me on my saving quest!

[Adam26]

To be fair, I think it’s more a compulsive urge than a test. A test would imply I set out to do it to get a result. It just kind of happened. My impulse took over and all I wanted to do was be involved in some form of gambling. Maybe I’ve got it all wrong. But it wasn’t pleasant and fortunately hasn’t happened since.
Didn’t update yesterday. I was busy right off the bat at work in the morning. Didn’t stop till my break. Then I went home, watched Liverpool embarrass our great captain on his final home game. Then it was straight back to work for a busy night, short staffed. I forgot to mention too, that before work I stopped at the bike shop to get my bike back. Nope! Needs some extensive surgery. Gonna cost me about 140 quid! So I’m not too impressed with that.

[Adam26]

Quiet day today. Last night on my way home from work the pedal fell off my bike. I can’t drive so it’s my only means of travel. Not only an inconvenience but also a financial dent. Could cost me a tenner, could cost me £65. I’ll have to wait and see in the morning. Either way, there’s nothing in my bank so I’ll have to dip into my tip savings.

[Adam26]

Ok. Things are getting me very itchy again recently. I didn’t mention it yesterday but now I’ve done it again I best share. Get it out of my system. On Tuesday night I actively persuaded someone to put more money in the bandit at the end of the night. I really just wanted to see the reels spin. I got a cheap little thrill out of it but thought nothing of it. Last night, I did it again. I layer it on thick about how the bandit hadn’t dropped the five hundred jackpot for ages and loads of money had gone into it. Sure enough, greed got the better of my victim and they pumped their hard earned money into a dream. It was painful to watch at times as the machine was just hungry for money and giving nothing in return. I even half persuaded them to play off the small amount they did win. They took the money. They took the loss. I must admit though I did get a kick out of watching. The chance of that jackpot rolling in was capturing me, even though it wasn’t my money. I just wanted to SEE that win. It was a pretty risky game to play I’m sure but I couldn’t help myself. I’d been sweating about it today but now that I’m at work and I can see the bandit it’s not bothering me. I must have a pretty messed up head the way I’m tackling this.

[Adam26]

Gutted today. Limited tickets went on sale this morning for Gerrard’s last match at Anfield this Saturday. I managed to grab one but since it’s such short notice I can’t get the time off work. It’s the end of an era and I’m not going to be there! So I’m beyond pissed off about that.
Last night the regular gambler was on the machine again. He spent about 2-3 hundred quid and didn’t get a sniff. Usually this would prompt me to have a dabble in the morning. Something about the machine taking so much money always told me that there was a chance it would pay out the next morning once the machine had been reset. It made me sweat over it a bit this morning. I keep thinking if I hit it at the right time I can get a couple of hundred. But then I remember that there will never be a ‘right time’ again. A little will always turn into a lot with me so there’s no point thinking about it. But I still do… Anyway, the old boy who plays it in the morning had a go today. He didn’t win anything. Theory blown right out of the water!
I also had an argument again with the lad that knows what I did. He always says the same thing. “If you’d just stopped the first time you won it back you’d have 19 grand now. You should of stopped when I told you to stop”. He just doesn’t listen to my argument. I’d been heavily gambling thousands a day for nearly a month! If I’d won 50 grand I wouldn’t of been able to stop. There was never gonna be enough. The only way I was stopping was if there was nothing to play with. At the end of the day, I lost it all and hence lost the means of playing… It’s such a shitty, harsh life lesson and one I don’t think I’ll ever live down. But I honestly believe I needed to lose it all before I could learn said lesson. I really hope I have learnt it too. Eleven weeks so far tells me I’ve at least taken note of the lesson. The lessons on my radar. The lesson and I are casual acquaintances. I’d like to think the lesson and I could be more than just friends. I hope to spend the rest of my life with the lesson.

[Adam26]

Busy day yesterday, hence the no show. Possibly only the second time I’ve forgotten to update this daily. I was having a cleaning session that just got out of hand. I’m talking hardcore cleaning here people! Seems that due to conflicting work schedules, we most likely won’t be going to Alton Towers. I guess it’s money saved. The boss is going on holiday next month, so I’ll have to work every day being that I’m the only other key holder. So I’ll most likely be doing a minimum of 17 straight days. But it’s s few extra quid in the bank…
Anyway, enough of that, it’s Tuesday morning…
WHERE THE HELL ARE COORS!!??

[Adam26]

Been a quiet day today. Just got back to work after watching Liverpool in my break. Not a bad result 1-1 at Stamford Bridge. Needed 3 points though. Thought it was nice to see the Chelsea fans out in force making the club proud. You’ve just won the league, today is your crowning, what do you take to the game!? A plastic card of Gerrard slipping. Of course you do. Celebrate winning the league by mocking a legend who made a mistake A YEAR AGO, to give the league title to MAN CITY! What a class bunch of fans! Every credit. Anyway, rant over. There’s a terrible singer on tonight so I already know it’s not gonna be busy. Now there’s something to look forward to.
Thanks for the lift by the way Charlster.

[Adam26]

I keep asking myself if I need to post on here every day… There’s plenty of occasions where I just log on and don’t have anything to say. I think my attitude perked after a couple of weeks so I’m in a better place now mentally. But then I have days like today, when it’s so quiet at work my fingers just get really itchy. The old boy that plays the bandit just came in. He got the bonus of 3 boxes on the bandit. You pick a box and win an amount of money. He picked £100. A good win you’d say. The other two boxes had £500 in them. He was gutted. I’d be immediately interested hearing that news. That jackpot will now drop in the next few days. Just needs someone to invest in it. That someone used to be me.
I think I forgot to mention also, last week at out AGM. The accounts show that gambling machine income was at an all time high. I’d absolutely love it if this can last me until next year and we find out that profits are down on them. That would highlight to me how bad my problems were.

[Adam26]

Had to go into town today. I’d saved £50 to take with me as I needed a few bits. When I got to town I realised I’d left it in my work pants! I’d got £60 left in my bank account so I’ve tried to make it without having to go all the way back and get my cash. I’ve managed to just about get the stuff other people asked for. But nothing for myself. I didn’t need anything to be fair, but I glanced over at the massive arcade in our town centre and remembered a time when I was just a kid when I used to judge my day on how much stuff I’d bought myself. Only thing was, it would also relate to how much I’d won gambling. Most trips to town when I was a kid consisted of a few games of bowling, £1 burger and chips, then a few quid on the bandit in the games room of the bowling alley. I can remember that the machine was themed around grapes. 9 times out of 10 we’d get the jackpot which was about 25 quid. Then depending on how lucky we felt, we’d either go spend it on clothes or videos (remember videos?) or we’d head to the next arcade to test the waters on a few more machines. Quite sad to think that in certain places (the piers) we’d subconciously remove our money and stuff it in our socks. Just in case someone decided we looked easy enough to take advantage of. Either way looking back on it, it was quite a sad way to spend my youth, but very enjoyable at the time.

[Adam26]

Election Day today… Hope you’ve all voted. Being a senior member of staff at a Conservative Club. I of course, encourage you all, to vote Labour.
Only joking… Or am I?
No…
But?
Have a nice day.

[Adam26]

Day 70 today. I’ve made it 10 weeks now. If I can manage to save up as much money in the next ten weeks I’ll be on my way to getting half my savings back. It gives me a lot of hope that the two years I gave myself to save it back up could be cut considerably down. All this without playing a single gambling machine to further (reduce) my income!
I’ve been making early plans for us to go and stay at Alton Towers for a couple of days. Could probably go to Spain for a week and it would cost less, but I do enjoy a good thrill ride.

[Adam26]

Proper annoyed again today. What kind of time slot is 8:30 until 12:30. I officially hate Coors! Just had a call from them saying they’ll be here in half an hour. That’ll take it to 12:30 exactly. So I’ll get home about 1. Which is pointless coz I have to be back here at 3. Seriously does my head in that the days so poorly planned out that obviously doesn’t concern anyone else since it only effects me. The most annoying thing is, it’ll probably only be a couple of barrels yet they won’t leave it down the side. Someone has to be here. Some mug!

[Adam26]

Day 68. Just checkin in to check in. Not much happening right now.

[Adam26]

Productive day at work. I’ve spent the last hour defacing a campaign poster for our local MP so he looks like Batman. I believe Batman’s morale message is something we can all get behind.

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