[Adam26]

I guess there’s no better time to come on here an vent than a Tueaday morning. Last week was obviously a fluke and now Coors are back to norm being late and ruining my morning! It’s not helped by the fact I got very little sleep last night but still got up at 7 and dragged myself here for half 8. I was looking forward to a bit of a kip between shifts, but chances are I won’t get home till 1 then I’m back at 3. Can’t say I’m too impressed.
I’ve took it upon myself to get a member of staff removed while the boss is away. He’s the son of a long term employee but that doesn’t matter where business is concerned. He’s only a young lad but he’s easily the most shifty person I’ve ever worked with. The amount of times he’s short changed people is into the double figures now and the worst thing is, he’s never questioned one! When I was young and starting out, if someone said I’d short changed them I’d immediately demand the till be counted. Not doing so in my eyes is just an admission of guilt. Not sure how his dad will take the news but if I’m honest, I don’t really care. I’ve even volunteered to pot him myself.
Apart from that bit of drama it should be smooth sailing to Sunday when the boss returns. He must be missing the place as he’s coming back a day early.

[Adam26]

Well that’s a week over with. No problems so far. Stocks been fine, staff have turned up, not ran out of change, not killed anyone yet. It’s more than likely killing me in so it can hit me with the worst week ever next week!

[Adam26]

The dreaded Friday has arrived. Easy day so far. Banking done, safe is correct and the delivery came on time. It’s absolutely dead in here today. Not sure if it’s always like this but I’ve been by myself for nearly an hour. I missed a phone call this morning from my boss. It was a few minutes after Carlsberg rang me so I knew it was about the delivery. I sent him a text that said “if it’s about the delivery, I’ve already spoken to them”. He text back with a simple “ok”. It was then I decided to be an absolute legend. A comedy genius with unparalleled timing. I simply text back “I’m not sure how they’re going to get the delivery in since the explosion”… Just leave that one to settle in I thought. Queue the frantic phone call from Spain desperately seeking information on said explosion… It was funny when I wrote it, is pretty much all the information I had to offer. He seemed pretty gutted he still had a place of work to come back to…

[Adam26]

It’s only day 6. I’m sick of being at work! It’s not helped by the fact that it’s glorious sunshine outside, which is uncommon for England but near unimaginable in Blackpool. I’m getting through it anyway. Tomorrow is another story. I always hated Friday’s. Not only do I have the banking to do, the safe to check and an order coming in the morning. It also happens to be the busiest night of the week. So with the people I work with, I’m not looking forward to it…

[Adam26]

15 weeks and counting today! Not a bad effort for now I think. Been a busy day today. I’m sure some cosmic forces are at work when my boss goes away. It’s like, oh, he’s alone for two weeks? Best make sure everything breaks! I’ve been tackling the post mix dispenser all morning. Just about managed to fix it this afternoon. Saved a call out! 1-0 Adam. Touch wood I’ve not ballsed any of the orders up yet, so we’ve not run out of stock. 2-0. I’ve had the glass washer fixed. 3-0. I’ve let people being in loads of change to save me carrying it back from the bank. Problem is I’ve no notes left now. So I’ll have to skip the banking this week. 3-1. Damn it!
I thought these two weeks would be a decent way for me to get a bit more towards my savings with the wages and tips I’ll get over the course. But actually all it’s been so far is long hours filled with temptation. Yesterday was the first time in a long time I was moments away from breaking my run. I was convincing myself that since the bandits were my problem area, I could have a quick play on the card machine and still be on track. I could buy 100 cards for £100 and I’d probably love opening them all and counting the winners at the end who knows, maybe even get the £300 jackpot in there. Being here every day I can’t help but be aware of what’s going in and out of these machines and it makes me feel confident I could have a quick win. But I have to take a step back and think about my chances. My real chances. They’re not high at all. But either way the outcome will be the same. If I lose (which I will) I’ll put more in to try and win. If I win (which I won’t) I’ll still put more money in to try and win more. I had a chat with the guy who knows what I’ve done last night. He told me I should really tell my parents. He said if he was my dad and I told him, he’d respect me for it and help me through it. I know he’s probably right, but I still think I need to prove something to myself before I can burden others with what I did…

Maverick, just seen your post mate. Glad your back and getting into the groove of things again. Thanks as always for commenting. I of course listen and appreciate your input. But I guess this inner battle is the only way I know how to deal with things. I’m sure I’ll share my secrets with people one day. But to reiterate what I said earlier, I still feel I need to prove something to myself. I’ve always been a loner and I keep my emotions bottled up. That’s just who I am. When I’m ready to let people in I will. I’m not an expert at any of this. I’m just someone who fucked ip big style and is trying to get over it the only way he knows how.
Apology not accepted for the match! Worst display I’ve ever seen and I’m furious at the way the team gave Gerrard a send off. But in all seriousness there was only one team who wanted to win and they did it very well.

[Adam26]

It’ll come sooner than you think Micky. You’ve already done the hard first couple of weeks.
I started my two week run yesterday. I must admit, I’ve been feeling pretty lethargic last couple of weeks, but I seem to of gotten a second wind now I’m in full command. It was pretty bloody busy last night and I was knackered at the end. It’s hard work in a sense that there’s only really my boss that understands how I work and communicate and we sync pretty well. Everyone else I work with has something about them that irritates me. Last night I was paired with a lad that thinks he’s gods gift to bar work. I’m pretty shit hot myself but it’s never something I’ve felt the need to boast about. You just get on with it. On top of his obvious self-love, he also seems to think he’s involved in every conversation going and constantly crashes in when I’m talking shop with my superiors or just randomly answers questions from customers that are aimed at me. This dear readers, is very, very, annoying! Tonight’s help consists of a woman who is constantly complaining of being tired. She’s had a part time job on top of this one for a few months and it’s obviously killing her. I’m sure I’ll be full of sympathy after my near 80 hour week when she tells me on Tuesday she’s tired during her two hour shift.
Maybe the service industry ain’t a good choice for someone that hates people!

[Adam26]

I was so desperate to cling onto my last days off before two weeks day and night working, that I forgot all about my 100 day anniversary of gamble free life. Today is the less impressive figure of 101 days. Less impressive? I guess more impressive really, but not as round is what I meant.
Went to The Pleasure Beach on Thursday. Jeez! It’s been around 20-22 years since the last time I went and I’m not kidding, there’s stuff there that hadn’t been touched in all that time. Anyone ever heard o a lick off paint? It was a pretty good day out to be fair but I definitely felt it! If there was a ride were they strapped you in and just had a bunch of little kids run in from the sides and start kicking you in the legs and chest… It probably would be considered one of the more comfortable rides.
Went to town for some art supplies yesterday too. Fifty three bloody quid for basically about 20 pens and a canvas! I’m gonna have to start charging people for these canvases I’m knocking out! I guess I’ll be spending a LOT of time at work in the next two weeks. So I’ll be able to do a bit while I’m here. Not really what they’re paying me for but did it, I’ve been here long enough to have a bit of leeway…
Anyway! Here’s to another 100 days. Cheers!

[Adam26]

Just about starting to turn I think whatever this illness is I’ve got. Last few days at work were a nightmare. Really just didn’t want to be there. Felt very sluggish and couldn’t really concentrate. Last couple of days have been testing on me. There’s been a ton of money gone in the £500 jackpot machine yesterday. Everyone left early last night so I was left alone with not a soul in the place to lock up. I had a few conversations with myself in my head about wether it’s time to start gambling again. Last night was a perfect opportunity to have a whirl. Currently it’s 16:27. I’ve been open since 15:00. There’s NOBODY here! It’s an absolute gamblers paradise. I’d of killed for days like this when I was still gambling.
Going for a day out tomorrow to the pleasure beach. It’s never really appealed to me since it’s right on my doorstep. But I think last time I went they hadn’t built The Big One yet, so I thought maybe it’s time to see if it’s changed much… Only got tomorrow and Friday to chill out. Then starts my 17 day stretch. Looking forward to it and dreading it at the same time, as usual. I know how to run the bar. It’s the stock ordering I don’t like. Especially since we have 4 suppliers now. It’s hard to know where it’s all coming from. I’m sure I’ll manage it. Either that or just either massively over/under stock… I’ve done both before. Neither of which make my bosses happy.

[Adam26]

My dad was telling me about his latest betting experience. If Arsenal hadn’t scored the forth goal yesterday with two seconds to spare, he’d of won £200. My mother reminded him that the lesson to learn here is to NOT gamble. Little to they know their degenerate son hasn’t learned that lesson and is currently sitting on a quarter of his LIFE savings! Another sobering conversation I’ve had to sweat through. I got another reminder too that next month I’ll be paying £300 a month more in rent. That’s going to really test my ability to save money… Not really looking forward to it to be honest. Although I’m closing in on 100 days without gambling, I still don’t feel like I’ve really accomplished anything.

[Adam26]

Ugh. Been feeling out of sorts last few days. Nothing gambling related, thankfully that’s not crossed my mind for a while now. Just not been feeling myself. Tired and aching and nauseous. Need to shake it off though. Only one more week until my 17 day stint at work…

[Adam26]

This is what I kept telling people! I’ve got an extensive library on everything I’ve ever bought, what I paid and what I think it’s true value is. I try my best to never sell at a loss, so everything extra I get is all gravy! Only problem is (which I’ve succumbed to a few times) is although it’s great selling some spares, every now and then something else pops up. Things I’ve been on the look out for for years. Just happen to turn up now. So naturally I have to go for them. Speculate to accumulate I guess! But yea, it’s definitely helped a massive amount and I can now say that a few minutes ago I rounded my savings up to 5 grand. That’s awesome in less than 100 days!! That’s on course for 15 grand this year… Ok, that’s pushing it! But still…
Didn’t update yesterday. Had a fantastic night in Liverpool. There we’re about 1.5 million people in Liverpool yesterday. Something about three boats circling in the Mersey. I don’t know… More importantly it was ten years to the day that Liverpool lifted the European cup in Istanbul for the fith time. Last night was the celebration at the O2 Arena. Brilliant to see all the ex-players talk about that unforgettable match! A brief reminder of the greatest night of my life.
Anyone keeping score between me and Coors on a Tuesday. I had to miss them this morning due to travelling back from Liverpool. They still phoned me though. Best part was, we were blocked from leaving the hotel car park for 15 minutes by a delivery wagon! Typical…

[Adam26]

Ha, cheers bud. I know who to go straight to if I wanna vent my anger about the poor delivery timing!
Well today was a sad end to a sad season. Gerrard got a goal on his final game for Liverpool. Unfortunately the team as a whole embarrassed him again by shipping 6 goal in. I’ll not be able to moan about the delivery drivers on Tuesday this week as I’ll be at the 10 year anniversary of Liverpool’s heroics in Istanbul. So I won’t get back on time to take in the order. I’m sure they’ll still find a way to irritate me. Like ringing me at half 7 while I’m still in bed in Liverpool. Anyway, should be a good night and I’m looking forward to it. Unfortunately I have it on good authority Gerrard won’t be there. Hope that’s wrong.

[Adam26]

I should mention too that my ambition to get my money back quickly is only temporary. Ive mentioned before, I’ve got a lot of stuff in a pretty sizeable collection that I can sell. At the moment I’m downsizing. Selling things that aren’t essential. That’s not the best way of putting it really. None of it is essential. They’re only things. But they’re my things and if I can keep the best ones I’m going to. I’m getting near to the end of things I want to sell, so that’s gonna reduce my income a fair bit. My work stint soon will help. But next month I will be living alone and therefor paying out a lot more on bills and food. So I’ll have to get used to saving up slowly.
Anyway, the leg problems stem from varicose veins. Not really a problem a 22 year old should be worried about but here I am at 30 and they’re still bad. I think last time I went to the doctors they said it was cosmetic and therefor wouldn’t be on the NHS. Roughly translated as, that’s just a visual problem, so if you want it sorting you’ll have to pay for it. Doesn’t matter I’ve not been able to kneel down without immense pain standing back up since I was in my early 20’s. That’s obviously just cosmetic…
Enough whining about myself. Time to whine about work! Only jokin. Although I’ve been open for nearly an hour and haven’t had a customer yet. Boss is off. The lad I’m working with tonight sucks. It’s bank holiday… Shush now Adam!

[Adam26]

Cheers for your comments and concerns guys. The cellulitis deal was about a year ago now. Fortunately I’ve not had any problems with it since. It was a comedy of errors really. I went to my doctor, he told me it looked like I’d broken my ankle. So he sent for for X-rays but they told me at the hospital they couldn’t tell me the results, I had to go see my doctor in a week. So they sent me away with the wrong medication all the time the cellulitis is getting worse, I was developing a fever and there wasn’t anyone I could turn too. After a couple of days I ended up going to the walk in centre who diagnosed me immediately… But yea, there’s only two of us with keys, so if one goes on holiday, the other has to be there every day. Not ideal, but a jobs a job.

[Adam26]

Been feeling pretty low recently. I’m only 30 but for as long as I can remember, my legs have hurt. Poor circulation and blocked veins make it difficult to walk without a certain amount of aching. It’s just been getting me down a bit more recently coz I’m a bit burnt out. I seem to be tired a lot more at work. Could probably benefit from a bit of time off. Only trouble is my boss goes on holiday soon and I’ll have to work all day and night for at least 17 straight days. The only benefit of that being that I’ll save some extra cash in wages and tips. Possibly another trip to the doctors after he comes back. Last time he went on holiday I got cellulitis. Look it up. It ain’t pretty. I couldn’t walk for three weeks and I was off my tits on pain killers while I had one ankle the size of a tree trunk. But I still had to be in work… Every day! Great times!

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