Today was day four of no casino, but it was a bittersweet day. Our wedding is now on hold. I didn’t have an urge to gamble today which is a great feeling.
I shared with my fiance that I posted on here last night. She commended me for doing it when I spoke about it with her this morning. This evening, it became a different story. A comment was made that “six months ago, this would have been great, but now it’s too little, too late.” These words really hurt me. For the first time ever, I feel that I am attempting to get help with my addiction, but it’s too late. I’ve already lost the person that I love the most, the person that I want to spend the rest of my days with.
I don’t feel that we are going to come back from it this time and it really pains me. It pains me that I’ve hurt the woman that I love most in this world.
