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I almost did it on Friday, I almost went back. I was traveling home and was near where the casinos are. I got off on the exit and got to the bottom of the hill, I caught the light at the bottom. I sat and debated, the light turned green. I went through the intersection and got back on the highway and went home. I won. I was faced with a battle and I conquored it. I am now 73 days casino free!

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Thank you, it really is paying off!
Staying focused and beating this disease is my goal. I am learnng that there are different outlets for my feelings than spending that time in a casino.

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Dan,
I know where you are coming from. I’ve used gambling to deal with rage and anger, I saw it as an outlet. I have come to realize that it is a HORRIBLE way to let off steam so to say.
Find a way to release that anger that is more positive and healthy, harness it somewhere else. I have began to think of the consequences of my gambling before I leave for the casino, this has helped me.
Continued success on being gamble free, you can do this!

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I am now over 30 days casino free! It is a good feeling to see that I am saving and getting life back in order. Things are going well and I cannot be happier!

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We went to our third session today and it really sucked! May things came out, many emotions as well as many fears. When we got back into the car, we both kinda broke down. We agreed to try to make us work. We have unfortunately postponed the wedding for right now, but we need to be on the same page firstly.
We spent the day together, went to lunch and did some shopping. It felt good, it felt right! When we got home, i had a package in the mail of some books I ordered: GA A Day at a Time and also Sharing Recovery Through GA. She was shocked that I purchased these books and was really proud of me, it was a great moment!

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Today is my 16th day casino free! It has been rocky at home since our last counseling session Monday. I will take this one day at a time ans hope to move through it.

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That’s right, thirteen days casino free! We went out with a group of friends tonight for a birthday dinner. We had a great time! I haven’t had one urge in the last thirteen days to go to the casino. I’m hoping that this is truly the end of casinos for me!
Tomorrow we go to our second counseling session. I hope that we will continue to make positive strides to our goal of becoming whole again.

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Welcome and good luck. You’ve taken the first step, that’s the most important thing.

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I made a mistake in the gamble free days. I am nine days casino free! I’m pretty excited at this point that I have gone this long and I see it only as the beginning! I am attepmting to work on things with my fiance, but it seems that we are not yet having as much success as I would like to at this point.
It seems like we are arguing more and more. It seems as if at times she wouldn’t care if I walked out the door and it hurts me deeply. I am committed to her, to us and to myself. I hope that she will in turn feel the same way that I do and accept me for who I am, that and her forgiveness is all that I can ask for.

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DJ,
Welcome. I have been here for a short time, but this has really helped me to be able to read about people just like me. Good luck on your journey!

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Our first counseling session is down! We have another next Monday. If felt good to talk about what some issues have been on top of the gambling. I went and had lunch with a friend after as well and made non-gambling plans after next weeks session with jim as well, it’s been a pretty good day!

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I made it through my first week!
Tomorrow is a big day with our first counseling session, wish me luck!

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I made it through another day, six in a row now!
My fiance said something today that really got me down though. We were going over our plans for tomorrow and I told her I was going out with a friend. She asked me to promise that I wouldn’t gamble. It irked me to hear it and I let her know, but she said it was something she had to say. I know that she still doesn’t trust me because of my past actions, but I need her to let some of it go or we will not get through this together.

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Day five has come and gone, no casino visited!
My fiance and I started a bit of a savings contest. On the first day we each put 10 cents on the side, the next day 20 cents, the third 40 cents. We will run this cycle of saving every nine days with the amount doubling and will save $102.20 for each cycle. Multiply that by fourty 9 day cycles in a year and we will have over $4K saved!
In the grand scheme of things, it may not sound like much, but for someone that has gambled away WAY more, it is a start to show that I am capable of not gambling away my money and also hopefully will regain trust back from her.

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So, this morning I did some research and made a phone call. I found a counselor nearby that my fiance and I are going to visit. Our first appointment is Monday morning.
After hanging up the phone after a few intake questions, I finally feel that a burden has been lifted off of my shoulders! I feel relieved and relaxed and feel that not only am I, but we are taking a good step in the right direction!

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