[nevertoolate]

I want to write this post mainly to remind myself how gambling destroyed my life.

I’m in my mid 20s and was fortunate enough to save over 100,000 dollars.

I used to be hard working, have great work ethnics, and most importantly had a goal in my life… i honestly can’t say the same when i look at myself right now.

from 2016 – 2018, i lost everything, over 100,000 dollars that i had saved up, 5000 dollars in credit card debt. I thought i had no future when lost everything
and got myself into 5000 credit card debt for the first time.

I was betting 500-1000 dollars a hand at a blackjack table like it was nothing. Towards the end of my first gambling life, I had no feeling when i won or lost a hand.

When i lost everything i had, i decided to register myself as a problem gambler and banned myself from all casinos around me for 5 years.

I was living a gambling-free life up until late 2019 and found out that i could still go to casinos in reservation areas built by native American tribes.

being stupid i was, i decided to try out if i could hold my urge to bet a large amount of money.. of course i couldn’t hold myself back.

It wasn’t as bad it was when i first started gambling, but I still lost around 5,000 dollars.

If i lose 25,000 dollars that i have saved up last two years in attempts to build a new life, I don’t know what i’m going to do to myself.
I don’t know why I can’t think straight when it comes to gambling.

Please stop gambling.. please stop..

[LSA]

Hi
I feel sorry for your loss. You lost a large amount of money.
It won’t help to gamble again…As you say yourself: ” don’t know why I can’t think straight when it comes to gambling.”.

With your great work ethics you can get up again financially.
Are you ready to stop? If you are ready I think you need to set up more hindrances/blockers.

You may want to consider attending some kind of therapy to learn more about why you play and just to say everything out loud…I don’t have the balls to do that myself but it’s a good idea!

You are still quite young and you have shown the ability to save a lot of money. I think you can overcome the financial déroute and get a bright future….if you get rid of this addiction.

Most gamblers get one or more relapses before they manage to stop completely. Don’t be too hard on yourself. But you need to take action to avoid going back once again!

[Ryan123678]

As LSA has said you are still young and can turn this around. Work hard again and get your life back on track. It gets easier as time passes but don’t be fooled into thinking you can control it. Come back on here if you get the urge to gamble and remember how you felt when you lost everything. We can all help each other here. Stay strong.

[Montserrat]

When we accept that we are powerless and have a problem we take the first step in right direction.

I have been struggling with gambling for almost 26 years .
I am 40 years old but believed I reached rock bottom .

I guess I always tried to somehow be control my gambling problem but the fact is I cannot control it this I should completely avoid gambling at all costs.

Just know that we are not alone and we can overcome this terrible addiction .

I believe if there is a will there is a way .

If we could just remind ourselves daily how bad life was caught up in the rush of gambling and all the lies ,guilt and ups and downs we unnecessarily created in our life’s I think we would think twice before we fall in the trap again

All the best to youre recovery and believe we all can become better persons through this journey.

[Montserrat]

We are only one bet away from disaster

[nevertoolate]

I had an urge to re-install the online gambling app, but managed to hold back my urge. I feel sick to my stomach when i think about how much money i’ve lost, but i’m still thinking about gambling. I really shouldn’t have started again.

Will call gaming commission first thing in the morning tomorrow to inquire how i can change the ban from 5 years to lifetime.

Let’s stay strong everyone and fight this evil thought out of our head. I really hope everyone here can stop gambling because I feel like a lot of us went through the same thing.. All of us deserve better.

[Ryan123678]

I know the feeling. Hopefully if you banned for 5 years from all the sites then reinstalling apps won’t get you back on. Stay strong it’s harder at the beginning. Power through you have the rest of your life to live. See it as an expensive lesson or think of it as something you had to pay out like a student loan. The money is gone now lets move forward together.

[nevertoolate]

that’s exactly what i’m trying to think, it was a very expensive life lesson. But, the feeling of losing over 100k is just overwhelming.. I will move forward and get over this worst part of my life

[nevertoolate]

didn’t really think about much about gambling, maybe it is getting easier since the relapse. Looking for a new apartment to move in. I thought maybe moving to a new apartment for a fresh start would help me with this recovery since I feel sick from all the memories i’ve had in this apartment. I am determined I will never gamble again in my life.

[Steev]

The title of your thread is “want to change my life” and I think finding somewhere new to live is a good start to this. Don’t stop at that, find new (non gambling) activities to do, new (non gambling) friends. Think and act like someone who is not a gambler, and you will change your life to one where gambling has no place.
I wish you well.

[nevertoolate]

decided to hand-write a diary about my journey. I’ve never written a diary before, but i think it’s gonna help with my recovery as it can serve as a constant reminder why I cannot afford to gamble anymore. I truly hope everyone here who has a problem with gambling can overcome this evil addiction.

[Montserrat]

We should constantly remind are ourselves never to go back to that destructive way of living.

I am also in week one day 6 to be exact and find it hard because the guilt of all the damage I have done is on my mind.

I guess over time it will become less .

Super proud that I made my choice . This will be the best gift I can give my family and myself .

As a compulsive gambler we neglected are family and wasted time doing something that added no value to our lives.

Have a great day and keep clean 

We can do this together

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