[joe ser123]

Hi Everyone, I’m writing today because I know it helps to post daily, weekly, it also helps to read other posts to always remember the pain keeping it fresh.  It hasn’t been easy but i stayed strong and I know that I never want to ever gamble again, I know that helping others on this site is also helping me to stay gamble free.  I have felt new love in parts of my body that I haven’t felt in years, it’s a great feeling to think about other things other than gambling, life is so great, they old saying if your not learning your dying.  This day was extra special to me because every year in Ontario Canada they have the Pepsi North America Cup 1.5 Million, hosted at MOHAWK Racetrack, about 1 hour away from my home.  For the last 10 years I’ve always taken my Dad, Father in law and friends with me to this event we always had a blast, it was tradition.  Today I never attended this event nor did anyone else, I told them all that were going to start a new tradition this year, were all going to the local park for Father’s Day tomorrow for a BBQ.  Its going to be a great time, has I’m writing this I’m very proud of myself to miss this big event that I attended in the past.  This was always one of my biggest hurdles to miss big events like this one.  I do love horseracing and I enjoy reading about it, but I will never wager on it again, it’s self destruction it ruined me, I have felt that same racetrack many times so angry at myself, saying that would be it, I need help.  I would always think of different ways I should bet again limiting myself to smaller wagers that would last a week or two and then I had the urge to raise the stakes and that’s were the problems begin, when someone can lose $1,000 in 4 or 5 hours at the racetrack and then spend another 3 or 4 hours next door and play slots it’s crazy, did this many times.  I llok back now and think was I crazy, I know now it’s  a weakness that we all have we don’t know when to stop nor do we know when to leave when were winning, we always leave broke week in and week out.  It’s so crazy to work all week in a hot factory and give your hard earned money to these local casinos and racetracks.  There’s so much we can do with our time and money, there is NO REASON for us to live this way, if you think it’s a stress releiver your fooling yourself it causes more stress and self destruction.  It’s so nice to get up Saturday and Sunday mornings and feeling GREAT!!, no remorse happy to be alive, having positive thoughts flowing through my head rather than feeling confused, angry, sick, and having chest pains.  I don’t wont to ever again experience these things again.  It’s so much nicer to live gamble free, watching funny movies, spending quality time with my family is so important to me, never again will I ever put gambling first. 
I’m so happy that I lived through a hard today, I’m proud of what I accomplised today, If I can change we can all change, we all know that if we continue to do the same thing GAMBLE we will always get the same RESULT!!  It’s very important to post and read other posts on this site it helps us all.  To all the Father’s, have a GREAT Father’s Day Sunday.  Talk soon.
Joe
 

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