[kimzi89]

Recently I was pulled out of work for a family emergency, I rushed home only to find my whole family sat there waiting for me. I got sat down and told that they are worried about me, they’ve been worried about me for months. So much so that they secretly logged into my Facebook account, they came across very damaging messages. Since 2013 I became gambling on a regular basis, at first it was just the thrill, then it became a way to cope with boredom and relationships that never worked out. Then slowly it became a life style, I was spending every waking moment when i wasn’t working on my phone playing slot games online. I would play and play until when I next tried to deposit it told me transaction declined, before I knew it my wages had gone in the blink of an eye. To get money back I started borrowing off friends so that I could still by food and get by but then what ever money I had spare I’d find myself gambling it away. I then started using my phone bill to play games, yet my contract was in my brothers name and when he wanted the bill money I never had it as I’d been paid and gambled it away again. After swearing to him that I’d finally gotten over it I slowly started to get myself into a worse position, I was lending money off friends who I’d been close to and was that close that I’d send a few saucy photos when they said send us a naughty pic and I’ll help you out. This has been going on for a while and now my family have seen some of the stuff that I’ve sent out! I’ve deactivated my account to give myself a break, I’ve signed up to Gamstop and excluded myself from gambling from 5 years and also downloaded Gamban on my device to stop me from attempting to try and find some type of site to gamble on. I became that bad with my gambling that insurance money I recently received of £5,000 was gambled away in just under 2 weeks. As a 32 year old I should be a healthy 8.5/9stone yet I currently weigh in at 7st 5lb I’ve forgotten how to eat and sleep. I found this forum hoping to find some advice and support I’m new to all this. Thank you for taking the time to read my story

[G Rec]

Hi kimizi89,

Welcome to the forum, and well done on taking a positive step joining, and starting a journal.

As Dunc mentioned, there are new members groups on Mondays and Thursdays. I found these every useful when I first joined the forum, and I would strongly suggest giving those a try.

[kimzi89]

Yes I’ve seen the groups and am hoping that I can join the one on Monday, unfortunately due to work I can’t join the Thursday one. Im hoping to get as much help as possible.
Thank you again

[lklfc18]

Stay strong I believe you can do it

[lklfc18]

You can do it 🙂 if you ever need to talk I will check this thread every day 🙂

[kimzi89]

I’m getting so stressed, I’ve looked into going to meetings that are close by me. I decided with what I want to talk about I don’t wish to attend the one closest to where I live. I decided I will attend the next one that also isn’t far but where I may not know people. My family seem to not understand this and are under the impression that I may not go. I understand they want to see me get help but surely me going where I feel comfortable is better for me? I just don’t know what to do. I’m getting the help and thought that was the main thing?
What should I do? I also can’t attend the closest one to me because of then having to get the time off work and I really don’t want to tell work why I need the time off.

[lklfc18]

I spoke to someone on the phone and they got me a therapist to talk too. It’s was all done remotely maybe that could work?

[lildavie11]

Think positive and you can do it

[charles]

Go to the meeting you are comfortable with Kimzi

[Badsportsbettor]

Hello Kim

First off thank you for posting its hard to say truths to strangers!

That being said just like this forum, local GA meetings are very supportive. If you run into someone you know they will be very encouraging. I know the first meeting I went to was scary but I felt great and so welcomed after I did it!

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