[razzabelle]

Hello All & Happy New Year……I haven’t been posting much because I really have not been actively gambling due to the fact that I have completely depleted ALL sources of $$$. I MUST make my mortgage & car payments ect….or else I WOULD end up suicidal. It has been grueling. Anyway, I had some extra $$$ that I received from Christmas and decided to treat myself to a long awaited night at the casino. Oh Lord….I arrived at 7:00 pm with 300 VERY precious dollars…..was DEVASTATINGLY broke by 9:00 pm…..wanted to die with that familiar gut churning, helpless, nausea, and pounding head. As I was pushing through the crowd with tears welling in my eyes, I saw an elderly man lying on the casino in the act of having a grand mal full blown seizure. His limbs were twitching and he was shaking. If you have ever seen someone having one it is NOT a pretty sight, There were two security guards looking dumbfounded and as if they would rather be anywhere but there. I guess someone had called an ambulance. What really appalled me was the fact that ALL AROUND this seizing man, bells and music were playing and NOT a ONE person left their machine. Honestly it was sickeningly surreal and it left me with a shiver down my spine. People IGNORING a man right in front of them who was clearly in distress. Is this what this disease does to us???? Prayers and Hope to ALL my fellow CG’s……May we find some sort of life preserver in 2014……God Bless.

[icandothis]

Can relate to your story, Razzabelle. I have a friend whose father died of a heart attack in a casino. Also, my mom tripped and fell in the casino and broke her shoulder and was taken by ambulance to the hospital. In the same casino, my dad passed out. When he awoke, my mom had also passed out and was lying next to him. They were both taken to the hospital. Each in their own ambulance. After that, I am sure the casino employees were less than excited to see my parents walk into the casino! I also can relate to losing lots of money in a short period of time. What other activity can you spend that much money in such a short time???

[desdemona]

Dear (((Razzabelle)))! How lovely to see you posting. I too witnessed someone having a grand mal seizure in a casino. Perhaps it has to do with someone having epilepsy and all the lights, noises, causing a seizure. I have read online of other people being shot in a Vegas casino and people stepping over the blood to get to a slot machine. Compulsive gambling does make people behave in ways they never would in the “real” world. The casinos don’t even shut down for a minute if someone suicides on the casino floor. Wishing you a gamble free new year. Please keep posting!! Carole

[charles]

Hi Razzabelle, good to see you posting.

You are right, there are many cases of this sort of thing happening but it’s important not to get distracted. The important thing here is your recovery.

“…I haven’t been posting much because I really have not been actively gambling …”

Maybe learn from that. When we don’t have the funds or the opportunity to gamble is usually the time we should be posting, the time we should put things in place. That way when we do get the money/opportunity we have the support/barriers that will make us less likely to place that next bet.

It sounds like you are in that position again right now? No money so can’t gamble? Ok so what are you going to do in this window of opportunity? How about getting yourself banned from that casino? Finding a GA meeting? Placing other barriers in place so that next time you have money you are les likely to gamble?

It’s important to use help to stop gambling, it’s equally important to keep using support to maintain recovery. Keep posting and let us knmow the positive steps you are taking?

[razzabelle]

thank you for the warm welcome back :)))) I am going to start actively seeking a second “little job” @ nights to keep me busy & help sort out my somewhat “messy” finances…while the biggies (mortgage, car, utilities) are ALWAYS paid; alas some credit cards are very delinquent….part of my problem has to do with being a hyper active person. ALL of my casino activity has been after dark (most of the time after midnight) These are my trigger hours when work and other activities are done for the day. The bad place was like an evil little place calling me in. At times I felt very “dirty” when I was driving down the interstate with the promise of “gambling”……Friends if I have to be honest; b4 the racino opened up, I was driving to All night Walmarts and Targets…..lol….and at LEAST I had something to show for it. Now I NEVER shop unless utterly necessary. I DO KNOW that I will continue to try and understand my habits through self reflection, possible therapy (if insurance will pay), mild sedatives (which DO help, but I don’t want to be dependent) and continuing to visit and learn from places like this …..I have stated b4 that we TRULY are all in this together, and in reading others stories we learn, relate, and think. Have a WONDERFUL gambling free evening, Friends!!!!!!!! Razzabelle xxx

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