[FoundFreedom]

As I’m sure lots of you can identify with, I’m writing this post feeling sick, scared and disgusted with myself. In the middle of last night I seriously thought about going out to kill myself whilst my family slept. I love my children and don’t want to leave them but the fear of my husband finding out that I have lost our savings is driving me insane. I can’t eat or sleep.

Believe it or not I’ve only been gambling for about seven months. At first it was just fun then I had a big win which made me think I could win more and more… You know how the story goes.

Anyway, I had a long break and started to recover some of the losses but then before Christmas I panicked about my husband finding out, gambled to try win back what I’d lost and have now lost the lot.

If I told him the truth now then I think I could resolve the financial issues but I’m terrified that he will either leave me, tell everyone hire disgusting I an or just lose his temper and maybe hurt me. Hrs never hurt me before but I’ve never betrayed him in any way before.

I never, ever want to gamble again. Please help me. I’m very alone and very afraid.

[monique]

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Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

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[monique]

Thank you for sharing your story. You describe your fear and sense of loneliness very vividly. It is a difficult place to be in. But, please be assured that you are not alone – here there is support from people, who will want to understand and suggest ways forward without any judgement. Do continue writing and also reading the posts from others and come in to the Support Groups, too, if you can manage that.

Best wishes,

Monique

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