[Kiiirst1]

hello 

The last week I have started to realise i have a problem 3 years ago I won 10000 pound and up to last year I would play £10 pound a month at a push but now i can spend 100s a week and when i do win I gamble most of it away i want to stop and be able to have days out and be able to relax knowing I have the money but at the moment I spend it then I get angry with my self because how much I have wasted. I want to talk to my family about my problem but unfortunately my aunt was diagnosed with cancer and has been given weeks so I don’t want to cause them any issues or take them away from my auntie i hide it all away and pretend everything is ok but I secretly hate myself. I’m trying to find something to keep me distracted but nothing works I’ve blocked myself from sites but I just sigh up to a new one.

[Steev]

Hello Killrst1. Well done for taking the first step and recognising that you have a problem. I recognize the endless remorse after losing money and the fight inside my head between the gambler and the abstainer, (the gambler always won.)

I know it is a difficult time within your family, but you do need to be open about your problem, especially if it is affecting them. If you can’t do this by yourself, get support from someone – a trusted friend or talk to someone on a help line locally.

This is the most critical time, first admitting to yourself, so come back and talk more or visit a group. The way to distract yourself in the early days is to put the time and effort you would have put into gambling, into your recovery instead. I wish you well.

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