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now 38 and still on the same path of self destruction . can go long periods of no gambling thinking to my self how great it feels not having all the deception and worry on my mind. then woosh i put my self back in the same position feeling guilt unworthy lonliness and all the other horrible feelings that come with it . i must get a grip , i know all the things i should do and put in place to help stop me but there is always some way round it . this time has got to be it i must do it for my family and most of all for my self ,so here goes no self pity, done that too many times i have lost count ,plan of action needed ,here goes lisa compulsive gambler last bet 14,06,11 around an hour ago .i will remember this date every day as it is going to be the best thing i have done in a long long time , 1 day at a time i can be strong .

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