[Easylife123]

I would like to share my life story with you in short thus far.

I am a gambling addict..I accepted this a long time ago. Gambling has cost me not only relationships with previous partners but with family members also. I have took my mother to hell and back and will probably never have the same relationship with her again.

I started gambling when I was very young..I remember most Saturdays sat with my grandad watching the horse racing, i found it fascinating. I remember riding my scooter as a child pretending it was a horse round and round my grandmas house.

At the age of 11 I had a bet on the grand national, a 4 mile plus race where 40 horses compete, to most gamblers this is a roll of the dice and such and a hard race to find the winner. Not for me, I won it four years in a row from ages 11-15. To me this was my downfall, as from such a young age I thought I was invincible.

I started work when I was 16, once I turned 18 the first thing I did was open an online betting account (as the clock struck midnight). Within 2 weeks I went through around 5 thousand pound. Money I had saved in the previous two years.

From then on i sunk deeper and deeper taking out loan after loan, racking up around 50 thousand pounds of debt. Eventually I broke and told my mother, who doing what she thought was right bailed me out and paid off a lot of my debt. For me to only fall back into the same hole.

The problem I have is life seems so dull without gambling, I find a normal life boring and very little interests me. When I have no money to gamble I become moody and am hard to be around.

I am now at a point where it’s now or never. I have to either turn a corner and beat this or accept my fate. Not for only my sake but for the sake of my family and friends..I would say wish me luck but as we all know there is no such thing. It is up to me to man up and beat this myself.

[LSA]

“The problem I have is life seems so dull without gambling, I find a normal life boring and very little interests me.”

I think this feeling goes away after some time. You have been gambling for most of your life so it probably takes some time to get used to your new lifestyle.

You should of course beat this gambling problem and move on. With your story in mind it may be best with some professional help? Not sure how old you are but with a lot of debt it may be a good idea to go all the way immediately and not try to solve this yourself. But in the end you need your willpower but I know you can do it, people, also you, are very strong when they get enough!

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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