[rajhk]

Friends ,

I have gambled for last 8 years and have had very bad experience . Many times in last 8 years have felt give up and have got back just to repeat the bad experience . I gambled always because I wanted to win and after an unbelievable bad experience one month back I woke up in the morning with thoughts of not wanting to win . With this thought have started my journey of recovery .

Since I started my journey of recovery one month back I have been going through different things but have been able to manage not going to gamble for the reason of not to loose my family and my job which I love the most . I am going through lot of financial challenges due to my gambling and overcoming them is going to be a new experience . I have had may in last 8 years but present one seems the most difficult as always . Will only know with time how I over came them as I really don’t know how to over come but I am trying my best what ever possible with my capacity to solve the problems .

In last one month I didn’t had any money so I couldn’t gamble to win even if I wanted , but last tow days have been different . I have not been gambling to win even when I have money and only spending money to make necessary payments to over come my financial challenges created due to gambling . The biggest reason I feel I have not been gambling to win even when I have money is the fear of loosing money .

Now I have realized if I can develop fear of loosing the money I can stop gambling to win again . I will continue to fear loosing money as this emotion can stop me from gambling to win . Not gambling to win is a mixed feeling . I feel good I am not loosing any more and I feel bad I am trying to win . For the moment I am convinced the feeling of not loosing is better for me .

Friends , when I think back what made me gamble to win and stop gamble to win and start and stop and start and stop I realize it is only me who is responsible for what I was doing and nothing else hence if I am going to stop it is only going to be me .

I would like to tell all my friends never get into gambling . It is not even tough business , it is the only business where you can loose 100% of your investment and it is impossible to understand why it happens . When you don’t understand something it is better not to be associated with it . This is my experience .

That is it for this time , will come back with more thoughts and experience as I have had a lot of them in last 8 years which I believe is not only going to help me to become a better person but also it might help others who are going through the same experiences . Appreciate all your responses to my post to encourage me to post more …….

[iacovos]

keep posting your experiences. Gambling is like an ex-wife that always takes you back into her arms whenever you leave her. She is just waiting for you to come back to her. She will wait

[janey1]

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Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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[rajhk]

Wish me to find a new girl friend please so that I don’t have to go back to my ex wife !!!

[iacovos]

I have been on this rollercoaster for about 10 years now. I’ve stopped and started. Just when I get financially stable, something happens in my life and I go back. The circle starts again. I know the end result but I still carry on but don’t stop until its even worse than the last time.

[rajhk]

My thoughts are is to find and get involved an alternative interest which is more challenging due to which you can’t gamble and the new interst be a positive one . When I mean positve challenge it means which promises to make you happy and which actually makes you happy . Gambling is negative challenge because it promises to make you happy but it never makes you happy . Appreciate your thaughts .

[Anonymous]

Hi rajhk,
I think You are still stinging from your last gambling experience. However what usually happens is we forget the pain as our addiction deceives us into thinking it will be different next time. I will only spend A small amount..that’s why Its a good idea to have barriers in place while we are feeling strong. When we have a moment of weakness it makes it difficult for us to gamble if we have barriers in place
.my barriers are are a block on my phone and no credit cards!! Make sure u are prepared shud ur addiction lead you to a moment of weakness

[charles]

Hi rajhk and welcome to the forums. I see you are already getting some good advice and i’m sure you will be reading more on the other threads here.

You say that you have stopped and started again many times in the past, I expect a lot fo us could say the same. What’s going to be different this time?

You are stopping now, you will get some funds together, you will have somethign ahppen in life and get urges to gamble – whast going to stop you? If when that happens you are posting here and using support that would help. if someoen is looking after your funds and you are accountable that would help. Other barriers would help.

Keep posting and let us know what positive things you are putting in place

[iacovos]

Hey Rajhk,
I haven’t heard anything from you on this post. Is this thread dead?
My computer broke and I am stuck using the library computer until I have enough money to fix or get anew laptop.
This was a BIG temptation for me. I could have gone to casino and borrowed some money to solve this NEW problem, but I resisted.
I feel free from this illness. I felt I was about to walk into a prison and start a new life sentence.

[rajhk]

Hi iacovos ,

I am sorry have not been able to post for some time as I went on a business trip for two weeks and then have been busy at work and also have found some new interest and have made some progress towards recovery……. too many things happening shall get back to posting soon .

[rajhk]

Best part is when you have so many things to do , there is no time to think of gambling . Hope to continue like this .

[iacovos]

Good to know you are well and positive about the future !!!

[Anonymous]

Well done rajhk!! Keep busy and stay in recovery!!

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