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i am married man and i i have a very beautiful wife and a very sweet little girl of three.but since i started that job and i left immediately after 5 months cause i wasn’t going nowhere with that job.not just my work money i was leaving all them in fruits but even my savings that i saved in years it vanished.then i was continuing like that till yesterday day after day when some money it came on my hands.i owned money from the bank and i am in a very big trouble as nobody can faith on me.and i hate myself in the first place which i can’t find the real reason why i put myself into this which i can see its really hard to get out of this.i got almost three years playing like crazy like i am going to win what i have lost in the past but as soon as you get empty pocketed out of there you realize you should’t get in on the first place.then you are a damn sober and you don’t even hold your little daughter once in your arms,you go at home like you don’t want anything that surrounds you,you are hungry and you don’t want to even have anything as you realize that its your wife’s money that it is feeding you,you are helpless then you go to bed and your wife tries to hug you and you are not there at all, you are one minded why i do this,and one minded why that f. machine didn’t give me five so wanted 77777.thereafter coming lots of things and wanted desperately for the family that i can’t realize why me why me why me that is harming others and destructing myself.why why why why and when i got up i don’t have any money even for a coffee when just yesterday i put on the machine 300 pounds …. i cant find a solution not at least i couldn’t for three years.i hope my life will not carry on like this.i hope i find the real answer here
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***** Jorg,
Not sure if you are still around but it would be great to hear an update from you. Were you able to talk to your wife and parents about it. There is a lot of support available to you both here and in the "real" world. You just have to ask for it.
Mike
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