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Day 1… There have been so many.
I could talk about the self-hatred, the failures, shame, guilt, depression… I have read many journal entries, and I can relate to so many of your stories. The very thing I reach for to feel better knocks me down and beats me up and leaves me wanting more. My escape has become my prison.
But, if this is to be Day 1 of something different, then I will tell a new story. A person addicted to feeling good in a new and better way. A story of wealth, health, and happiness. Replacing self-hatred with self-love, and a person determined to getting her life back.
I am not sure yet how this story will turn out, but chapter 1 begins today…
Today I will tell my husband sorry, again. As the last week has been particularly bad. I wait in dread for the next checking statement that will come May 24. I promise my husband things will get better, and I pray that he will still love me. One change though, tonight I will ask him to take my debit card and take control of my ability to spend in excess. If anyone reads this, I would appreciate your prayers and good thoughts. Right now, I’ll dry my tears and hope for a better day than yesterday. After all, today is the first day of my spiritual journey!Today is the first day of my spiritual journey!
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