Hello, I started gambling when I was 18 years old. I only gambled small amounts such as £10 per week.. but that became £10 twice a week and for the past year I have topped the maximum amount I can go. I have been gambling up to £200 per day in one session and I would get mad when I don’t win.. I had a really large win around 5 months ago and I was on top of the world. I had won 10k. I cashed it out and made a pledge to myself that I wasn’t going to gamble any more since this is the highest amount of money I have held at one time. I am 24 years old and a gambling addict. Within just a week after winning that amount I had nothing. I maximised my overdrafts trying to get that feeling again.

I am so scared, scared of how much this is effecting me and how it could potentially ruin my future. I just can’t seem to stop. I got a new job that pays weekly and I have been betting literally every penny so I never have had the chance to get out my debts.

4 weeks ago I decided to make the change. I banned every gambling website in my household and timed out all the accounts so I could gain access. Surprisingly I was doing extremely well, I hadn’t gambled for 3 weeks and I felt amazing, I was managing to pay of my overdrafts and just within that time of hard work I am now only £600 in debt. Over the past few days I have had a really bad relapse since the cryptocurrency websites have come to light. I have been using a VPN to allow me to use bitcoin to gamble rediculus amounts after watching the gamblers on twitch.tv win massive amounts and I wanted that to be me.

I have really upset myself and let myself down and I am almost right back at the start. I am still going to work but I have been gambling all of the money before I even receive it, so I just never see the money. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to do it, I just really want that “big win”.

I am fully aware I’m addicted and I have taken every precaution I can think of, yet I still find a way around it thinking “just one more £10 deposit”. You can’t block cryptocurrency transactions because as far as I’m aware it’s not traceable.

I want to change, right now for good before I waste any more of my life. If I can stop , realistically I could get out my debts within a few months of working hard. I just wanted to write this post as a milestone that gambling is now my past. I will be honest that I don’t convince myself but I really have to try. Gambling is loosing and I don’t feel sorry for myself, I’m angry at myself for always failing.

I look forwards to making a change and this website seems to be helping many others and I would love to experience it.