Hi All, I’m new here. I had a year bet free but recently relapsed. I’m so disgusted with myself. I’ve stopped gambling and reached out for support but I’ve yet to tell my husband. I’m terrified. I know he will be furious.
To be honest our relationship can be a bit toxic my gambling addiction started 3 years ago when I was suffering with clinical depression, we had a lot of issues in our relationship , he spends like crazy on new clothes and useless items but we’re up to the hilt in debt from it , my incomes constantly tied up helping to cover this. Living with his mother and our children and I just feel so trapped we should be able to afford the rent on our place but his debt eats up a huge chunk of income. I’d just had enough recently was fantasing about that big win clearing our debts and starting fresh. Instead I’ve messed up hugely. We had been working hard our relationship and some things had improved. I know our marriage is over now. I’ll be homeless in a few weeks and I’m terrified someone will step in and try take the children or he’ll try keep them full time. I’m not a neglectful mother, my children are well cared for. I won’t say that my anxiety hasn’t effected them at all and I’ll look into family therapy to help support them through this. They are all that keeps me pushing forward , I can’t tell you how many hours I’ve spent these past few days contemplating taking my life but I couldn’t leave them like that , not sure having an addict for a mum is much better though.