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    • #51795
      terrbear00
      Participant

      I have been gambling for over 30 years and I’ve always reached out to video gambling in bars to escape. I’m not even sure how to live
      without it. I have been struggling over the last 5 years with admitting I even have a problem. My family already knows. I have taken
      money that wasn’t mine from my family and my work has suffered. I have moved multiple times and seem to have a secret lifestyle.
      However, the last two years, I moved to a small town & you can’t really hide from folks. I start out lately by saying, I can stick to a small
      amount of money but it never sticks to that. I win but then I put it all back in. I play & play until I have to go and get more money. When my
      bank account doesn’t allow any more withdrawals, I take money off my fathers credit card or I withdraw money from my kids accounts. I always
      think I’ll be able to put it right back. Well..that doesn’t happen either. I had made a decision that today is the day and then I found a winning
      lottery slip for $100. I know if I go to the bar to cash in this ticket, I’ll stay & my gambling will continue. I am going to wind up in jail since I also
      binge drink while at the bar. I have read some of the other stories and I feel this is a site that will help me. I live in a remote area and there is no
      in person help within hours. Today is the day I quit drinking & gambling. Both have become a compulsive behavior I’ve continued to use to escape
      life. My life is good and I have a great job but all of it is stressful. I feel like I have to figure out how to start my life over. I will lose my friends as they
      are all associated with drinking and gambling. How do folks get the courage? Some of the wrongs I’ve done to people will severely hurt them if I
      come clean about them. Do I finally do something selfless and live with the guilt instead of causing more pain for someone? Can I make proper, good
      choices from here on out. I say yes, I can do it. It will be hard but I’m worth it.

    • #51796
      lizbeth4
      Participant

      Firstly, you are worth a gamble free life! Recovery is hard but the life of a gambler is harder. I also live in a remote area. There are no GA meetings and very few counselors here. I have traveled 4 hours round trip for both.
      I had to cut off friendships when I stopped gambling but those people were my gambling buddies. I knew it was the way it had to be.
      Check out the groups here. Keep posting! Read self help books. Stay strong.

    • #51797
      dunc
      Participant

      Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

      Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

      Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

      As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)

      And on that note….

      I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

      Take care

      The Gambling Therapy Team

      PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works!

    • #51798
      Meghna83
      Participant

      What you wrote above is the truth. You spent money gambling and losing, again and again. The truth is you will keep losing because you are a CG and no one actually ends up winning when gambling.

      But your habit and brain keep on lying to you to ensure that the addiction continues, thrives and dominates.

      Some of the wrongs you have done to others and yourself need to be given importance. It starts with honesty to yourself and others. Telling those that are concerned how you wronged them and actually saying sorry. Feeling and showing genuine remorse. This needs to go hand in hand with actions to stop the evil that is gambling.

      You really deserve your peace of mind back, your true honest, good self back.

      It really is in your hands and I believe you can be free of it once and for all

    • #51799
      terrbear00
      Participant

      I just want to say thank you for your post.  This has really helped knowing there are others that have worked through this and been in remote sites.  I’ve felt doomed for so long and I found this site.  I thought with the online forums & support groups, I can finally make it.  I’m dreading the friendship conversations but I know that when I say I’m not going to the bars anymore & gambling, they will dwindle fast.  I need to figure out new avenues to make friends.  I keep telling myself I can do it & I’m worth it.  🙂 

    • #51800
      terrbear00
      Participant

      I’m looking forward to joining the online group for new members.  This site has helped me so much and for the first time in quite some time, I feel like I have a chance. 

    • #51801
      terrbear00
      Participant

      Today was a pretty good day. I wasn’t sure what to do with my $100 ticket voucher because I knew if I took it to the bar, I would want to gamble. In my state, I can mail them in to the lottery & they will send me a check. I chose to do this rather than risk gambling. I saw a few of my friends out and about. I just said Hi and acted busy which kept me moving. If I would have stopped, they would have wanted to party & get together. I’m not ready to have that conversation. I know avoided it is not good but I figured forcing myself to be uncomfortable isn’t necessarily good either. I will have to go there soon enough. I have to admit that today has always been an easier day not to gamble because my favorite place is closed. So tomorrow will be the day that will be most tough. I don’t know I have ever gone a Wednesday without gambling. Sad but true. I’m going to bed hopeful and I just keep telling myself I can do it. I feel kind of like I’m going to go to battle tomorrow. I am a war veteran so I am somewhat experienced in that. Tomorrow is scarier to me than when I went to war. I feel strong though. Stay busy, find alternatives, work through my triggers, and get through the day!

    • #51802
      kin
      Participant

      Hi Soldier,

      Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.

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