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Hello everyone,
I never thought I would be in this position. I never thought when I was younger this would have become my issue. I guess my life must be pretty dull and boring that I’m thinking the temproary happiness gambling gives me is feeding a void. i have had social anxiety
for a long time and most days it’s eat, work, sleep, repeat.. i’ve lost touch with most friends….I can’t believe this… I was just at the casino and lost $2000 and I can’t believei n the entire month I’ve already managed to lose $4000! I told myself there was no way I would
lose twice….since the week prior to these 2 losses I had won $500 🙁
Anyway this has been going on for far too long…. I work hard for my money and I’m so mad at myself for just throwing it away essentially… truthfully I wish there was a super fast way of clearing this debt like having a millionaire help me out lol but i know that’s
not going to happen and probably shouldn’t happen lol. As always, after I lose, I recalculate things always trying to justify my losses, but this is it for me….not having savings is just too dangerous, what if I lost my job tomorrow somehow?
I plan to update my journal at least once a week, maybe more and I hope I can maybe inspire others with theirs as well….let’s do this together!
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Welcome aboard need2stop,
You’re in a great place. Supplement with in person GA meetigs if you want.
I’ve been here a week and a half and it’s absolutely amazing (i also joined a couple groups on FB). I’ve written long and deep into some very deep and painful places … my behavior really is changing.
I encourage you to write, write, write. Write in your journal every day — every time you even get an urge or craving to gamble. Write about how you feel and the why. Dig deep into what’s under the surface driving you to gamble.
It’s so so worth it — recovery. Stepping out of the numbness and the indifferent pain.
You can do this — this is your time.
Much love and support <3
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