I was fambling in 18 years, in last 10 almost each day. It was first 3 years ago i was able to admit that i  have seriously problems with gambling but due huge financial problems and debs (no body knew about that then) and also due extremy addici i simply  couldt stop. But when i cam in no way situation in the end of my way, i said all to my wife and she decided to help me and save our marrige abd childern.

I stopped with gambling, first three months avd smthen started again avd finally stopped one more time, it was 5 weeks ago. Donto know what to say, its very very difficult situation and hard process. I am going both to group theraoy and tobindividual theraphy to my psychiatrist, its helpfull.

Each day i am thinkong and thinking about everything that happened in all last years and also about future. I am thinking also about my old life and habbits and also about life in the future. I am thinking about everything. 

I recognized three main reasons tfat i came in this situation and almost destroyed my life and life of my famuky. It can happeb that i am wrong but i think those reasons are:

1. Discipline (lack of discipline its better to say)

2. Live bettibg ( that us progrwssive gambling and shirtway to gambling life)

3. inclination to addiction ( as genes, environment, and similar)

I have 1000 of questions in .y head and no answer..

First one  and main, that i ask myself each day: Will i come in this situation, even i am addiction, if i could fi d a way to make money on long term with gsmbling? I could maybe be addiction and gambler, but making profut with tgat ( even small profit on long term). will i then again be in this situation? we can exclude financial problems then and money…