I have just tried to post on my journal (as really needed to share how I feel) but after logging in it wouldn’t let me post on my thread and it seems to have been closed down!, may just be a glitch in the system but had to just set up a false user name and new email address just to log into the site and be able to post my own thoughts.

Now I know I am not the best person in the world and in truth I am very far from it but I really do need some help and support, I am struggling big time at the moment and in all honesty I am losing the will to live, perhaps I have just messed up with my old user name and password (most possible), just wanted to share how I feel, maybe after making previous post the powers at be don’t think I should be able to carry on posting as some things may be a little close to the line (but always totally honest and true), either way please let me know if I have done something wrong as you have my email address (please use my old one registered to maverick. and not this one thank you).

So life is tough, I am struggling I won’t lie, I have been working hard at becoming a better man and have slipped up a few times recently, at times I dont honestly know how I can pick myself up and move on, at the moment I am at the lowest I have been for a very long time, I know its not the truth but at the moment everyone in the world seems to be against me and at this current moment in life I cannot see anyway out!!!!!!

life has this way of bringing you down and in truth it also has a special way of lifting you up…….I haven’t experienced much of the lifting up recently………………

I just wanted to share I am struggling and will try my very best to keep fighting, I wish you all the very best in the world and really hope you all have a great day in recovery, life is so very hard at times and when I have to create a new user name, login and email address just to share it becomes even tougher, please let me know what I need to/should do to be able to keep sharing with the people I care about.

Thanks for listening, being here and understanding, wish you all the very best in the world.

Maverick