Hi! My name Tristin. I have a problem gambling. I am married with two children. My addiction is online blackjack from the money I win wagering on sports. Four years ago, I never watched sports. I played sports in school, but stopped before I graduated. My entire adult life (I am 32) I never gambled. I would go to casinos, but I would play for fun as a social event. When I got married, I got rid of all my online dating, and various other adult sites, but I needed a new hobby. Being new to Los Angles, I started wacthing the Clippers games, and then I became a full-on sports fan. I watch all sports except cricket. About three years ago I heard of sports wagering betting on the spread. I deposited $50.00 into an online account, and started learning. Three years later, I can bet 20 games a week, and go 15-5 usually. I only deposit the minimum 20 or 50 dollars, and I build it up to hundreds to lose it playing in the online casino. When I lose it hurts like I lost everything. I just want to DIE!
I watch intently as the dealer pulls 21 after 21 after 21. Thinking the next hand I will win, and I dont. I pay my bills and take care of my responsibilities, but losing makes me feel so bad. I feel horrible it is the worst feeling ever, and the only person to blame is yourself, but it is an addiction I just cant stop. I need help. Today, I admit I am a gambler, and when I lose I hate the way it feels, and it makes want to harm myself, but I have kids and a wife that depend on me, so I have to be strong. Please share your stories for me to read as well it will give me strength to go on. Thank you for reading my post please respond!!!!