Hi guys, I’m VJ. Probably the its the time to say to myself I’m a compulsive gambler. Its all started like 8 years ago when i was 17. I can’t reacal welll what happend all thouse years, but bassicly when it get worse when i was 19 or so, every time i get some money i was loosing all of it on sportbetting. When i was bit younger my parent was sending me money from overseas, but i was living on my own, so basicly every time they send me some money i was loosing all of it and than trying to surive with pennys.

Well i moved to UK at some point, started to work and most of the time the biggest challenge is to pay your rent first and save some money for food, travel. You work hard all week, and than lost all my earned money sometimes in 15minutes sometimes bit longer.

About a year ago, i made a bet with my colleague, that i could stay away from gambling for a year(might not be the best way to try quit betting but still was something) and it lasted around six months, but one day it just clicked back again, from that day it wasnt to many days without betting.

I’ve lost around 5k in short period of time, get into debpt, it looked like it was ‘rock bottom’ but my girlfriend help me out with some money, of course with a promise that i wouldnt bet again. But i did im still lyeing to her that i dont, but i havent managed to give her back a single penny for last 5 months with allways finding some excuses for it.

Sometimes after i lost every single penny of my weekly payment, its impossible to get up and go to work next day, because u fell umbelievably low, and of course there is no one who could borogh u money to go through the week, and even if someone does, i lost them anyway.

I’ve just self exlude myself from my usuall betting sites, well it shouldnt stop me from doing it elsewhere. i just wanna find some streght to believe in myself that i would bet never ever again, but its not here. Probably thats the reason me writing here.

Thanks for anyone replying.

p.s. Sorry for my broken english.