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So i thought i would start a blog about my thoughts as i am trying to recover from my gambling addiction.
a small amount about me i am 31 and have been a cg for 15 years i have tried everything i can think or to stop and i am now a month away from going into Gordon house residential. So i am going to try and update this regular and go through my thoughts and feelings while i am trying to get this under control.
This is my second day gambling free and also as a result of the gambling i have started taking social drugs (cocaine) and i suffer with depression and lack of sleep.
its been 10 days since i have taken cocaine and also i have managed to stop taking my anti depression tablets and i feel like i can take it one day at a time.
The main problem i seem to suffer while wrapped up with gambling is my deluded thought process once i lose which is every time i gamble i go into this crazy mode thinking of every way possible to get money to gamble again and tell myself this time will be different and i can control it or i wont even gamble this time and then my mind becomes consumed until i do get money to gamble higher and higher amounts.
i kept myself really busy yesterday and it really did help so today i am trying to do the same thing by coming on here and starting this. Any advice is welcomed. thanks Gareth
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Congratulations on deciding to go to Gordon House residential and I am sure that you will learn so much about dealing with this gambling addiction there. I would be careful about not taking your anti-depressants though as I am sure they have been prescribed by your doctor. To come here every day and post before you go to Gordon House will help you in your recovery. We are all the same here suffering from a gambling addiction. It is one day at a time we live by. Wishing you a gamble free day!!!
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Hi Gareth, Well done on not gambling today. Planning your days will help you keep your time and thoughts occupied away from gambling.
There are 5 weeks or so between now and the when you go to Gordon House, between now and then use as much support as you can. Post here, get into the groups, maybe check out a GA meeing in your area as well.
What barriers can you put in place as well? How about getting yourself banned from where ever it is you normally gamble? Is there someone who could look after your money for you and/or make you accountable?
Keep posting, see you in a group again soon i hope.
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