I was very young(don’t really remember my age around 12 years old) when I gambled for my first time. My uncle introduced me to the magnificent world of sports gambling and of course my first bet won. I was too young to understand my uncle’s addiction which led him to a series of bad decisions in his life.
I wasn’t playing too much when i was young, because i didn’t had any money. As soon as i was getting older and having more money i started playing more and more.
At the age of 20 i took a full salary and i was literally spending 60% of my salary in gambling doing that for years. I wasn’t paying my bills and asked help for my mother to pay the bills. I started realizing that there is a problem with gambling that i couldn’t control. I have made several tries to stop gambling, but after having some 1-2 months clear periods, all of a sudden i started playing again.
I’m 26 now and before 7 days i started playing again from a 2 months pause period. I lost all my savings, that i collected to pay the bills that i left unpaid because i was playing. I’ll try again to stop it, but I’m afraid. I’m afraid that i will start playing again and destroy everything i have done. I’m 26 and i am trying to build my future, but i always screw everything, because i start gambling again. When i start gambling, i am aware of what I’m doing, but i can’t stop. i just can’t.
It’s 26th of September and i want to make a new start in my life. I’m afraid, but I’ll will not lose my hope.