1st thing I want to say is that i’m so glad I found this site, for months I have been seeking some kind of online help, then I saw this site.  I have read alot of stories here that remind me that i’m not alone and more importantly that we all have suffered in some way and some how because of our addiction. I don’t consider myself to be stupid, but when I look at the extremes that i’ve gone thru to support my gambling I can’t help to think how insane it is. I have lost my daughter, my job and my house. Not to mention my dignity, self respect and everything I believed I was. I remember years before this all started watching a movie about a mother who was a gambling addiction and wouldn’t feed her kids for that chance to win it all back, thinking how can that be it made me cry. So now it seems that I have suddently become a part of that story. I too have done things that I never though I could do, thing that have made me ashamed, things that go beyond my understanding. Mostly  I feel guilty for the looses and risking everything i had not to stick it rich although it would help rgain some of my looses but just to put things back where they once were, have excepted that what’s gone is gone and only time and hard work can restore me to sanity, I think my god what is really going on, how did I, but the end result is that it is what it is. for now i have it easy i have no money to gamble, for atleast 10 more days, it not when i don’t have the money it when i do that i end up right back to the very thing that has already ruined my life.kicking it to the curb