Dear everyone,
I started joining this forum back in July 2010 and actively posted until end of year 2010. I stopped posting when I had a relapse at the end of last year. I could manage my addiction because I was in winning streak and because I was equipped with information about cg. So I wasn’t gambling regularly, however, I was aware of the destructive pattern I would go through. I would say that I was in denial after a series of success in my career, thinking that I had sufficient knowledge about cg and I didn’t have to watch my step daily.
Now the devil has proved that I was wrong. After a period of abstinence, I started again a few days ago. This one was enormous as the amount was just way beyond I could imagine for short period of gambling. I’m scared of future now if I don’t anticipate it in the right way. I know that devil does and will always lie inside me. It’s just the matter of my choice to release it or capture it daily.
Thank you for reading it. I just shared my misery with my wife. I’m ready to make a brutal change whatever it takes for me to stay abstinent forever. I still know some of you here who had a chat with me last year.
rr04e
One day at a time
My last bet was Dec 27, 2011