In the last few months I’ve been asked by different people what my triggers are, I hate being asked that question, and can’t see the relevance of it.
The people asking that question have all been CG’s too, and they have explained that if I knew what my triggers were, then I’d know what to watch out for.
In my mind triggers are excuses, something to blame, a cop out.
When not talking about behaviour patterns or addiction when I hear the word “trigger” I think of a gun. (or only fools and horses).
With a gun, you pull the trigger and it fires a bullet. Pulling the trigger when the gun isn’t loaded wouldn’t do anything.
I believe that if I don’t have the desire to gamble within me then no amount of triggers will set me off gambling. The task for me isn’t identifying the triggers that make me gamble, but ensuring that no desire to gamble comes back into my life and thankfully I know how to subdue and virtually eliminate that desire.
In my mind triggers are just excuses  for people who aren’t being honest with themselves.
I was asked earlier in a group is payday historically a trigger, well honestly no it isnt. Over the last year I’ve not gambled on more paydays than I have gambled on.
Anyway its good to talk, better out than in.
Geordie.Recovery is priceless.