Day One
Today i begin my new journey. A new chapter in my life. Today i visualise myself letting go of that old life. Not trying to hold on to it, but letting it go. No more fighting, No more trying one more time. There is the line in the sand. I can keep gambling and ultimately destroy the rest of my life or i can make a choice today not to gamble and start a new and healthy life. I dont want pain in my life anymore or this suffering that i feel from gambling. Trying to survive from paycheck to paycheck, who wants that existence. Who would choose this? I have a choice within me. The voice of survival needs to be loud within me today. i need it to scream out as loud as possible that its time. its time to stop this lifestyle that is killing me. its time to live and feel and experience a world without gambling and it starts now
I have done things i never dreamed i would do, i have wasted so many years, i dont have to do that anymore, i have a choice. Today i say goodbye to gambling, it has been in my life for far too long, it has caused me nothing but pain and loss. I have lost so much money, i have lost people, i have lost time i can never get back. Ive missed experiences and days that have turned into months into years. Hiding away in a place behind a machine that sucks in money and spits out pain. I feel like i have been in prison and today is the day i am released. Day one begins
Today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday